Meds.

[Blake]

Is it bad that, I have meds diagnosed for depression but I don’t like take to them? I hate the feel. I feel weighed down. I don’t like the synthetic happiness they give you. it feels awful. I know I’m not happy but the meds are making me feel like it. It feels disgusting. Horrible, Forced. I go through these horrible mood swings that only the meds can really help with. I haven’t been taking them recently. I feel horrible, but not like I’m forced to be happy. Like this demented sugar high. So most of the time, when i’m being silly, or whatever the fuck, I’m probably drugged up. tbh, about the mood swing thing, I don’t even think they’re antidepressants. I think they’re mood stabilizers. I have several bottles of medication. But my mom doesn’t like to tell me what they are.

[Blake]

Blake Some days, I feel like this- Sick, sick drugged up animal and I hate it.

[Blake]

Blake And I won’t even mention, p a r a n o i a.

[Liuyxngz]

Blake I am so sorry you have to go through that. Being forced to be happy isn’t good either … I’m sorry you have medication like that. I hope things do get better for you.

[Blake]

𝖄𝖆𝖓𝖌𝖞𝖆𝖓𝖌 . Thanks. No matter how shitty we are towards each other i just want you to know I’m there for you

[Liuyxngz]

Blake I am there for you too.

[-_Rai_-]

Blake Let me give you some information.

I don’t remember the exact name but as far as I know, we have a hormone that secretes happiness. Factors such as ready-made foods and the internet affect these hormones, but these are factors that don’t really make you feel good, like empty happiness. Your medications can also be like this and that’s why you don’t feel good.

(I talked a lot of nonsense, right-).

I hope you can feel better, being forced to be happy with medication sucks :(

[Blake]

-_Rai_- Yeah- Happy pills are- “Fun”. also, thanks

[-_Rai_-]

Blake ‘‘I take my pills and I’m happy all the time
I’m happy all the time
I’m happy all the timeeeee’’
😔

[Blake]

-_Rai_- Me thinking you were refrencing “Happy face” by jaguar twin

[-_Rai_-]

Blake nope but I thought they were the same song before 🙂‍↕️👍

[Blake]

-_Rai_- Oop- I love Happy Face. Relatable