Suffering? TW: SH, GR00MING, ETC ETC
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KiwiArkavel after everything maybe just stop bc of ur mh and focus on urself and school and bc u are underage so…
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I’ve been hunting em for years on end, I don’t get a lot of help at all and I kinda want to not get help irl or smth, I do sometimes feel like I’m screaming in a void with nothing in it (the void being mppc due to the lack of people in it)
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No like, there’s some moments where I wanna tear my face off like this

But I kinda see where your coming with this tbf and I should probably stop before something unfixable happens
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KiwiArkavel Hai kiwi I am letting u know ur not banned anymore on bdsn
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Uhhhhhhh. I’m still banned.
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KiwiArkavel Dang agoin?
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No I’ve been permabanned
I was originally supposed to be permabanned 6 monhs ago over “arguing” but it died down
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KiwiArkavel
I don’t currently have the ability to provide any comfort or advice to you, but yeah. I think you should get help.
Didn’t you mention smth about locking your console in a safe and breaking it. wut.
but anyways. the way you’ve always described things in your vent posts gives me a disgusting, gut wrenching feeling. probably not even a portion of what you feel. -
I’m confused, wdym in what way do I describe it?
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KiwiArkavel
“By 1 Week I founded over 40+ Predators and every single one of them makes the sharp thorn inside me grow like a sick plague that infests nothing but anger and internal agony.”“I have zero purpose in life and I feel like my soul is trying to rip my flesh wide open and ascend from my vessel for good.”
there’s better ones on bdns if you’d like me to waste my time further.
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Iyw to- go ahead ig
(Unrelated but when I heard all of the voice lines for Geno, I legit WANTED to join his perfect order PERMANENTLY, the way he said Omnipotent I just want to ACTUALLY ASCEND with Genos perfect reality)
(HOPEFULLY there wouldn’t be a Geno c_lt thatll be made but it’s very unlikely to be made so yeah)