I'm probably gonna disappear again

[alyx.iz.in.starzz]

I just started being even slightly active again I know. And I’m sorry for doing this. But I’m not ok right now and I can’t even get help. Not from anyone right now, let alone the person that means the world to me. If your my friend, I recommend that you stop trying to be before I end up hurting you. If you aren’t, then don’t try to be. If I never talk to any of you again, thank you all.

[kalamity]

@Starry-Boy eh i wouldnt really care if you did end up hurting me, your my friend and i am not letting go easily

[alyx.iz.in.starzz]

@K-A-D-E your probably the only person to feel that way, ty :]]

[A Former User]

@Starry-Boy clay, its okay. Man, I’ve been hurt so many times before let alone someone I do honestly care about even if we don’t talk much anymore. I know a while back you said that you couldn’t get help and even if you cried and even if it was hard you still pushed yourself through every single day and I’m proud of you for that. I’m sorry for the things you’ve gone through and I’m really sorry for all the problems I’ve caused between us. Your stronger than you look and your braver than what you seem. If I have to hold on every single day then you have too also. You’ve made it this far even if you’ve been hurt in the beginning, middle, and your still fighting for that end but right now isn’t the end. Don’t give up. I’ll try everything I can to help even if you say you’ll hurt me or even if you say you don’t need help. Everyone needs help in some part of their lives and that’s what I’m going to try to do.

[kalamity]

@Starry-Boy if theres one thing to learn about me clay, if you are my friend and child, i will risk my entire life for you. you are like the world to me. nothing will ever stop me from loving you as a friend or family member even if not by blood. ill be willing to do whatever the hell it takes to see a smile on your face

[alyx.iz.in.starzz]

@xay-is-hot-duh thanks. I’m sorry for the problems we’ve had. The person that caused them probably will never talk to me again so I hope that can solve any of them. As much as I don’t wanna be here ill manage. Thank you man.

[alyx.iz.in.starzz]

@K-A-D-E thank you.

[kalamity]

@Starry-Boy your are very welcome, nwow cmere so i can give ya a big hug and maybe give ya a lil noogie

[alyx.iz.in.starzz]

@K-A-D-E :]]

[kalamity]

@Starry-Boy big tight hug

[A Former User]

@Starry-Boy I know what your feeling. I’m feeling it too… and I know struggling with suicide is hard. I struggle with it every. single. day. And yk, I’m still standing bc I know that if I go right now I would ruin every single person who actually gives a fuck about me that I would have never thought actually did bc I always thought that they didn’t care and that they didn’t love me. And yk, I can already see it. That’s how you feel. You feel like no one really cares and no one really loves you but yk people do fucking care about you and people do love you. Whether you believe it or not that’s that’s truth. Your strong. No matter what people say about you you will always be braver and stronger than anything that you’re going through bc your enough and you matter.