Little update ig

[alyx.iz.in.starzz]

I’ve been clean for 5 days and I’m really proud of myself, I slept last night on call with my girlfriend, and I’m currently high and have a new vape (yea it’s bad, but in the end I’m the one that’s gonna die sooner, I’m sorry) and have a white monster bc that’s one of my favorites, and I’m going out with my friends tonight, I haven’t cried since yesterday and washed my face this morning. My band camp starts Sunday night and I likely won’t be on much next week cuz of it

[A Former User]

@That-Bitch-Astrid Well. I don’t think having a new vape is a good idea. Were you referring being clean of smoking?

[alyx.iz.in.starzz]

@Duchess 5 days clean meaning 5 days since I last hurt myself on purpose, and ik the vaping is bad, but I’ve stopped caring what people think and still don’t tell people irl

[A Former User]

@That-Bitch-Astrid
oh yo that’s nice at least. good for you for staying clean from that for that long

[alyx.iz.in.starzz]

@MrTree yea, I got upset cuz I was almost a month clean before that tho

[A Former User]

@That-Bitch-Astrid
ah but think about it this way, you’ve gone about a month and week and only failed once. That’s pretty good!

[A Former User]

@That-Bitch-Astrid Oh, I see. It’s good to know you’re improving on that. Does being clean that long motivate you to continue that? Like how difficult is it for you?

[alyx.iz.in.starzz]

@Duchess it depends on how stressed i am too, for now I’m doing good but there’s no saying if I will be in 2 days or so