Update on me recently. [Mentions the following; suicide, self-harm, and sadness/anger.]

[ry_rylie]

Hi everyone thats reading this. Before I begin this update I just wanted to tell you all in case you didn’t read the title, this topic will mention the acts of suicide, self-harming, and alot of anger. Also please embrace the fact Im also on my Xbox so if something doesn’t make sense thats why.

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These past six weeks have been complete shit for me. Ive lost a lot of people and most importantly, Ive recently lost myself too. Ive lost myself years ago after some traumatic things happened to me but its mentally and physically impossible to try and be “okay”. About a month maybe two I lost a really important person to my stupid doings. I fucked up and I wasn’t there for him like I needed to be and things went downhill from there. Just recently I got him back into my life and Im so glad I did but sometimes I feel like Im not really wanted anymore. I have to switch schools again because my mom doesn’t want any issues between me and him but honestly its just going to make me worse. I hate being the kid thats new or the kid that has to sit alone at lunch because they don’t know anyone. It just sucks.

Going to go off of that topic, I mentally gotten worse. Ive self-harmed before but now its just a habit. I like to watch myself bleed because it just doesn’t hurt anymore. I feel something when Im hurting myself instead of being safe. Its like when you scratch your knee because you fell off your bike and it hurts but all you can see is the blood so you panic even more and it stings so then you worry about it but once you clean it you dont worry anymore. Thats honestly the best way I can explain it. Im just sad and angry all the time. I put myself down a lot and I cant do anything or go anywhere without covering my whole body up because I hate how I look. I hate taking showers, I hate looking at myself. I just want to feel okay. I want to feel something other than just nothing. Why can’t that ever happen?

[your_local_carlisle_simp]

☕𝜗𝜚 rylie dw, you’re not alone. My life sucks and i seriously wouldn’t be here without my friends, irl and onl. Im getting better with my insecurities and have grown to be proud of my little ‘imperfections’ that society made me insecure of.

I genuinely hope you feel better soon and i want you to know im there for you <3

[ry_rylie]

@ɴʏᴍᴘʜᴏʟᴏɢʏ Thx :] xo
Im glad your doing better that’s good

[Angel_xtrzツ]

dis a piano site 😹😹

[ry_rylie]

Angel ok… and? im sorry that i have feelings? like dude piss off

[A Former User]

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[ry_rylie]

@justafriendlycremeschnitte i greatly appreciate this. i used to not vent on here bc i always got hated on for it but knowing that some people actually do care makes it a lot easier coming out and sharing how i am. thank you so much for this. ❤

[Angel_xtrzツ]

@justafriendlycremeschnitte na I get to say lo que se me inche la pinche gana if u see som u don’t like den ignore it 🤙🏽😹

[finn.in.outer.space.]

Angel damn bruh you left and became an asshole g, what happened?

[bankedboxbox]

Angel the failure of following ones own advice: the Solomon Paradox
this fact right here actually means you are a heavily biased individual, Mr. Solomon sir

[Angel_xtrzツ]

finneass <33 I wonder y soft ass ppl ongg I js be sayn fax🙅🏾‍♂️💀

[Angel_xtrzツ]

@bankedboxbox 😹😹

[joe_shmoe3491]

If you are going to make any replies to the “Vent” Topic, it should only be to help someone, not to be rude to them