uh. [trigger warning.]
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i dont know what category to put this in,
today my mom dropped me off at my grandmothers for a bit so she could return some bottles. the place is shady as fuck and i didn’t want to go. i was in my grandma’s room, practicing a few ‘tricks’ [basically just things i do with oakley if it’s super crowded and i dont want someone to step on her] and my grandma calls me from the pantry and is like
"C’MERE, QUICK!!’
and i go into the pantry, and like- visualize this. you walk into the pantry, and there’s another door in the pantry that goes out into an empty echo-y room. by that other door, there’s a lil snake. nothing big, js those little ones that are like as wide as a dime and are about 10 inches long or sum
and im like ‘aww’ and my grandpa goes to it and im like ‘ok good hes going to take the snake out poor things probably stressed.’
so- uh. that snake never did make it outside. alive.
My grandpa SLAMS his boot onto that poor snake [who wasn’t even being hostile], grinding his shoe into the remains of that snake while i watch behind my grandma.
i went into grandma’s room. i felt sick. i thought i was gonna throw up. i had to watch as my grandpa got the grabber and took the remains of that grounded snake outside and how he grabbed paper towels to wipe up the blood and snake guts. i tried to focus on oakley, but i didn’t want to go on a walk with her after that.
and the worst part was my grandma laughed when she looked back at me and saw my horrified expression.
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★☆☆☆☆ god damn yall coulda put a blanket over it and took it outside alive and you know- Not blow out it’s fucking spine-?
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★☆☆☆☆ that seems really like, traumatic, god damnit you’re parents are like, fully psychopathic, grandparents, siblings, like HUH? try to take some time to acknowledge and accept your feelings, talk to someone you trust about how you’re feeling, like me, do some nice Activities that you enjoy, for example making Kandi bracelets, but also make sure you eat well, exercise, and try your best to sleep,
no judging but the way i sleep is that i find a VERY comfort bit, then i pretend i sleep with my fav character, as in cuddly way, remember that none of this is your fault, its their fault, so please don’t blame yourself for something YOU didn’t do.