uh. [trigger warning.]
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i dont know what category to put this in,
today my mom dropped me off at my grandmothers for a bit so she could return some bottles. the place is shady as fuck and i didnโt want to go. i was in my grandmaโs room, practicing a few โtricksโ [basically just things i do with oakley if itโs super crowded and i dont want someone to step on her] and my grandma calls me from the pantry and is like
"CโMERE, QUICK!!โ
and i go into the pantry, and like- visualize this. you walk into the pantry, and thereโs another door in the pantry that goes out into an empty echo-y room. by that other door, thereโs a lil snake. nothing big, js those little ones that are like as wide as a dime and are about 10 inches long or sum
and im like โawwโ and my grandpa goes to it and im like โok good hes going to take the snake out poor things probably stressed.โ
so- uh. that snake never did make it outside. alive.
My grandpa SLAMS his boot onto that poor snake [who wasnโt even being hostile], grinding his shoe into the remains of that snake while i watch behind my grandma.
i went into grandmaโs room. i felt sick. i thought i was gonna throw up. i had to watch as my grandpa got the grabber and took the remains of that grounded snake outside and how he grabbed paper towels to wipe up the blood and snake guts. i tried to focus on oakley, but i didnโt want to go on a walk with her after that.
and the worst part was my grandma laughed when she looked back at me and saw my horrified expression.
"๐๐ผ๐ผ๐, ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช ๐ ๐๐จ๐จ ๐ฎ๐ค๐ช๐ง ๐๐๐๐๐ฎ ๐ฌ๐๐ฉ๐ ๐ฉ๐๐๐ฉ ๐ฉ๐ค๐ฃ๐๐ช๐?"
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imagine being on my profile [hore] god damn yall coulda put a blanket over it and took it outside alive and you know- Not blow out itโs fucking spine-?
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imagine being on my profile [hore] that seems really like, traumatic, god damnit youโre parents are like, fully psychopathic, grandparents, siblings, like HUH? try to take some time to acknowledge and accept your feelings, talk to someone you trust about how youโre feeling, like me, do some nice Activities that you enjoy, for example making Kandi bracelets, but also make sure you eat well, exercise, and try your best to sleep,
no judging but the way i sleep is that i find a VERY comfort bit, then i pretend i sleep with my fav character, as in cuddly way, remember that none of this is your fault, its their fault, so please donโt blame yourself for something YOU didnโt do.
