Nah, what the fuck? (TW)

[Soverign]

(TW, DISGUSTING TOPICS.)

These past few days have been horrible, throwing up, shitting, and stuff like that. I’m not going to go to school this week if it continues, I don’t know if it’s food poisoning or just overeating, I’ve been trying to starve myself because I was afraid of this happening, but guess what? My stomach had other plans for me.

Hopefully I’ll be fine by Thursday, because I don’t want my friends to feel lonely without me I probably should keep some distance, should I blame myself? Maybe not.

But overall, this week has been fucking terrible. Facing your worst fear DURING school times too, I’ve lost out on my attendance because of it, and I don’t wanna create any specific concerns for my school either. I don’t wanna be seen as “skipping school” either. So love that.

And another thing that’s going to happen to me I bet is gonna be "OHH MY GOODNESSSS WHY DIDN’T YOU COME TO SCHOOOLLL? " And having to tell my teachers about what’s happened, I don’t wanna tell them, but at the same time I do, just gotta be noncha- stay to myself about that, because if I keep thinking about it, I’m probably going to end up having another panic attack about it, especially in class, which is NOT the best way.

Even if I do end up in school, Which I doubt to my state, I’m probably not even going to eat anything, or I’ll just distance myself from everyone due to anxiety of dragging on the sickness to them, I need to make sure they’re okay, I’m okay, and everyone else around me.

Just wanted to get this off my chest.

TLDR: I’m sick and I don’t want to go to school bcz I’m worried abt what will happen and I’m worried about my physical health

[Soverign]

Soverign Well really, I haven’t been throwing up as much as I did, infact, that bit’s ended, but I keep having the shits and it’s getting on my nerves with the stomachaches and having to worrying my friend when going AFK.