It’s the way I want constant reassurance, The way I crave attention more than I probably should, The way I feel almost needy just for someone’s presence. And I hate it, because I don’t want to be “ too much ” for people. I don’t want them to see me as annoying or overwhelming. But at the same time, I can’t help it. I just want to be close, To be safe. To know that somebody won’t leave me behind. It’s exhausting. Being this self aware, But still not knowing how to stop. I just wish I could be " enough " without needing so much. I wish I could be easy to love. Easy to stay with, But Instead, I feel like Iam constantly fighting this hard part of myself that wants more. more. more. more. and more. It sounds like greed to the point where that sickens me. My clingyness sickens me, My greed sickens me, I sicken me. It’s filthy. I don’t wanna keep draining people for my fuckery. It sickens me so much to see how horrible I am. And It’s disgusting. Absolutely Disgusting and sickening.

I just had to deal with one, Who happened to be my ex, Yuki. I mostly call her by her real name, Yolani. (She doesn’t deserve to be hidden anonymously dude.) And she’s been manipulating me our whole " relationship " and practically cheated on me. We were gonna work it out, but she blamed it all on me, so I had to waste half of my sleep time to cuss her out. I’m like still crying, And I’m tired. This combo really isn’t helping whatsoever. But I needed to get this off my chest BADLY.

brushed my teeth, cleaned my room, and read 2 books

all while listening to my beautiful msi, and jimmy’s voice on low volume, i love you jimmy urine, no one can ever tske you away from me, ever ever

YES, I had their consent

My eyes would’ve been closed 6 years ago .

Blake @Siloxa922

Beep Beep, Richie!

IT 2017 was 27 years after IT 1990.

If you don’t get it, Pennywise attacks every 27 years.

Blake Skinamarink.

I’m draining people, Because I’m scared of my insecurities and scared to let somebody go. It hurts to see how many people I know leave me because of it. And it’s terrible. I’m scared, And I don’t know what to do. I’m really worried, Really scared. I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t know how to stop being this version of myself that feels like too much. All I know is that I’m scared. Really scared.

@your_search_history_scares_me no cuz I kinda agree with you

Blake @Siloxa922 Wubbrle the [REDACTED]

She said thank you !!then called me the F Slur (she takes. After my bsf named Coral)

@petefromeltingville
Blake
@Siloxa922

like all in seriousness i fucking love myself. Some fake people really make me feel smart and pretty. I literally fucking love myself so much. Like holy shit, Where’d all this confidence come from before? I love myself that its sickening, But its ok. At least i love myself. <3

Neither of you are in the right to be Arguing. Just type it out like normal people and keep doomscrolling.

I’m not saying you aren’t wrong for getting mad at the person for whatever reason, I’m saying that they’re not just wrong for what they said. You’re also in the wrong for indulging in the argument. You and Them are in the wrong. Not just them.

I’m not saying you should stop with this, But i just personally find it stupid, And I want to express how i feel about this. Being as though 10 minutes ago, Someone told me to kms, I didn’t start a thing.

I’m sorry if i hurt anybody with this topic, But i really just find social media arguments stupid.

TruthOfTheNorth He really is !!

Blake BLOXYCOLAAAAAAA 🤣🤣🤣🤣

Oh, Father, please, please forgive all my sins
The water is way too deep, the deep end is where I live
Father, please, there’s blood all over these sheets
The Devil is in the mirror, he’s staring right over me
I always thought it would be easy
To get you out my mind
I think I found a new addiction
And it feels so right
Run, baby, run, run for your life
I’ma tear out your heart, it’ll always be mine
Run, baby, run, run for your life
Gonna tear out your heart, it’ll always be mine
Oh, there she go, losing my head
Say you’ll love me to death 'cause I will
Oh, there she go, show me you care
Say you’ll always be there 'cause I will
Oh, Father, please, please don’t waste any time
The sirens are turning red, I found a whole another vice
Father, please, she’s perfect in your design
She’s covered in Saint Laurent, you’ve shown me the holy light
I always thought it would be easy
To get you out my mind
I think I found a new addiction
It feels so right
Run, baby, run, run for your life
I’ma tear out your heart, it’ll always be mine
Run, baby, run, run for your life
Gonna tear out your heart, it’ll always be mine
Oh, there she go, losing my head
Say you’ll love me to death 'cause I will
Oh, there she go, show me you care
Say you’ll always be there 'cause I will
Run, baby, run
Run, baby, run

[Artist request by @Siloxa922 ]