So since I’m not under the constant stress of my mom, Ive been noticing more things about myself and my mental health and things I need to seek a therapist for (Venting and diagnosing)

I have been concerned about me possibly having Autism, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD and Dissociation (A symptom of anxiety)

And after talking to a Autistic friend (who’s also very smart btw) He mentioned to me RSD or Rejection Sensitivity disorder… This is a new one and with my research I really feel I resonate with the symptoms of RSD…

I hope my dad and step mom can get me into therapy so I can hopefully be diagnosed and treated and lean how to cope with the mental trauma, Emotional regulation, and just… The meltdowns and Anxiety…

I don’t care what my family has to say about
“just turn to God”
“You just wanna be diagnosed with everything 😒”
“You always want the worse diagnosis”
"You aren’t autistic because my niece… "
"You don’t seem autistic to me! "
“Youre just childish / it’s just hormones”
“God didn’t make you this way”

And so on.
I am looking out for me…
If nobody understands me then so be it… But if they don’t want to help me solve the problem and instead be the problem, then maybe they shouldn’t give me advice at all.

I love this shirt duuudeee

I’ve had enough. I told my Bio dad yesterday that I wanted to go now… He said he’ll pick me up yesterday. I’ve called CPS and they said he can take me and sign papers that says that he has emergency custody of me Until court.

I’m a little scared.

But I’ll be packing my backs wednesday.

I will be taking my computer and try to keep you guys updated.
I will get a phone too soon.

He is also going to be funny and not text my mom as we leave. Cause it’ll take about 15 hours to get to Where he lives… So He’ll ignore her texts and calls. Because that’s what she’s been doing. She has him blocked and shit so hah.

I’ll be safe.
He’ll get me into counseling.
He’ll put me into a normal in person school.
I’ll be able to make freinds and go to the mall without my parents consent…
I can be me.

And He has cats…
My favorite out of the three that he has, her name is blue… And she’s the silliest little baby ever… She’s a little under a year old maybe like 8-10 months

I can’t wait to see my little blue…

I’ll be normal…
and free.

I decided to postpone my attempt… I tried to do it but I couldn’t bring myself to do so.

I just ended up crying silently until I slept.

I have a scheduled doctors visit in August for therapy… I personally think that’s too far… But I’m not picky I guess…

So, recently… like 2 months—3 months ago, I was able to have contact with my dad. as in contact, I was able to call him without my mom listening in. and show him things like my art and keep secrets from her without my mom knowing. He told me stuff about my mom that I could believe it’s her because I’ve been with the woman my whole life.

these are the things.

1.

He told me that sometimes she can’t differentiate work from home and ends up bringing work home (which is how she acts) I know that for true because she’s told me before, “Act like a prisoner, I’ll treat you like one” and took all and I mean ALL My stuff. Most of my clothes, shoes, Piano, art stuff, privilege’s to watch TV (My devices), A lot of my books but the bible, my will to speak with friends, ect.

2.

She… has been exaggerating about my dad my whole life, making me see him in a different light, and horrible light. But when I saw him… or—spoke to him on the phone and he heard through me what my mom’s been saying, He was baffled.

She told me he LEFT ME. He told me he didn’t LEAVE she LEFT HIM.

(SO basically CRAZY SHIT right? HE has legal papers that says that I’m supposed to go to him for the weekends and holidays in HIS STATE. so my mom said “Uh uh” and MOVED To texas. I’ve always wondered why we moved so far all of a sudden. basically… she KIDNAPPED ME. but legally because she CAN Do that. if he wants me back in HIS Custody, he has to do alot of signing shit and paying shit… but my mom gave me free will when I turn 18 to live with him if I want so I’ll be doing that… and we’ll think of a way to sue or something.)

He told me that when she left, He got a warrant against him for NOTHING… and he got arrested and taken to jail. He knew it was her because her friends showed up to the jail and pointed and laughed at him like an animal.

Just inhumane…

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3.

The other wild shit I’ve heard that my dad DOESN’T Want me to spill to my mom (Because we don’t know how she’ll react because I’m going to see him aka ride a plane to see him in just a few weeks, and we don’t wanna ruin that) so uh… My dad JUST Found out cause the test results came in that… He has a son… a BIOLOGICAL SON… which makes that kid my Half brother… But I consider him my brother. he’s 12 years old, Just like me, and is a nice sport. (Why do I gotta be the eldest of 2 now ) So I’ll be meeting him when I catch that plane to see that side of my family… (Mom has FINALLY Allowed me to do so. we can’t ruin it…)

Honestly with this information… that I have a brother and that my mom almost legally kidnapped me… I’m a little shook and since I’ve known her for all my life, I can see most to even all of the shit happening. she LITERALLY told me MOST OF MY LIFE How bad my dad is… How he LEFT And that he shouldn’t be trusted.

Almost to prepare me to… hate him…

Here are some stuff I wrote about her in the past.
Like from 2022-now
https://mpp.community/forum/topic/38694/mom

https://mpp.community/forum/topic/19493/vent-3-tw-suicide-narcissistic-mothers-self-harm-depression-knives-tall-heights-and-other?_=1695313907044

https://mpp.community/forum/topic/48296/mom-d

This is Haven! He’s Biromantic and Asexual!

This is Eris, Havens boyfriend! He’s Gay and is a Priest

I love fan art ^^ Tysm for these people for spending their time of day drawing my persona
https://www.patreon.com/posts/thank-you-for-116919077
https://www.tiktok.com/@a.marie_the_artist

Yep! German!

This has been very stressful on me hence why I wasn’t here often

Heres how my room is looking so far

I’m also going to a new school which I’m not too excited about
But I drew on my hand while the councilor talked to my parents

I’m going to be in school on Tuesday, I don’t know what ima wear but I might go for something subtle nd less flashy sense I’m in a whole new district and I don’t know the vibe here

So, just to be clear, don’t be afraid to say you’re not attracted to trans men or women.

I’m neither transphobic nor homophobic in any way. But when it comes to my personal romantic and sexual preferences, I’m more attracted to cis men. That doesn’t make me transphobic—there are plenty of people out there who are into trans folks. It’s just not my preference.
Everyone has their own type, and respecting differences is key.

I respect the trans/NB’s/GN’s ! <3 <3
@Trans-3 @Non-Binarysss-3

This isn’t aimed at anyone I know—just a little reminder for the “woke” crowd.

DELTA-9

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The robots’ name is Delta-9 but prefers Delta. She is a model Nexus 11, and she is a very cautious, Intelligent, and innovative character. Delta uses Her advanced intelligence and mapping capabilities to guide Fiora through the dystopian landscape, helping her avoid dangers and find safe paths.
Despite being a robot, Delta develops a deep bond with Fiora. She provides Fiora with encouragement when she feels discouraged, helping to uplift her spirits with Her logical but heartfelt responses. Delta shares knowledge about the history of robots and humans, teaching Fiora about their shared past and the importance of compassion and friendship.

BASIC INFO
Species/Model: Nexus-11
Gender: supposedly Female
Age: Her model existed for 20 years.
Height:5’6-6’1