So since Iโm not under the constant stress of my mom, Ive been noticing more things about myself and my mental health and things I need to seek a therapist for (Venting and diagnosing)
I have been concerned about me possibly having Autism, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD and Dissociation (A symptom of anxiety)
And after talking to a Autistic friend (whoโs also very smart btw) He mentioned to me RSD or Rejection Sensitivity disorderโฆ This is a new one and with my research I really feel I resonate with the symptoms of RSDโฆ
I hope my dad and step mom can get me into therapy so I can hopefully be diagnosed and treated and lean how to cope with the mental trauma, Emotional regulation, and justโฆ The meltdowns and Anxietyโฆ
I donโt care what my family has to say about
โjust turn to Godโ
โYou just wanna be diagnosed with everything ๐โ
โYou always want the worse diagnosisโ
"You arenโt autistic because my nieceโฆ "
"You donโt seem autistic to me! "
โYoure just childish / itโs just hormonesโ
โGod didnโt make you this wayโ
And so on.
I am looking out for meโฆ
If nobody understands me then so be itโฆ But if they donโt want to help me solve the problem and instead be the problem, then maybe they shouldnโt give me advice at all.