@Gab-Gab Whether feeling new or old, everyone here at some point feels like certain things are influencing whether to do one thing, or another. Whether it is meaningfully right to do something for the sake of well-being, or otherwise. I totally understand how you feel. Seemingly trying and trying again to make something last, say, friendships, doesn’t get granted what you hoped that future to be - that can happen, and you shouldn’t be blaming it on yourself. You haven’t done anything wrong as far as I can ever tell. That’s usually one of the first things to self admit, is that the person flawed somewhere. But the reality is that we tend to depress ourselves over something that wasn’t necessarily the cause. You feel guilty, blaming this on yourself that we supposedly don’t welcome you here, but is that really true? I don’t understand what you have done for you to say that you’re unappreciated, unwelcome and unworthy.
What I sincerely wish for you though, is obviously what’s happening outside of this place - school, or anything that needs the utmost of care, should always be embraced. The internet doesn’t ever have to take you over. I respect your life and your choices, in which it may lead you towards an amazing and unforgettable destiny. One that has been recognized here, and one that will remain prominently marked forever.
A lot of us want you to stay. I want you to stay. But if you will depart, you will always be remembered. And you will be appreciated - you as a friend, and you as someone that has added to this amazing family, which will coalesce to admire what a true spirit you had amongst everybody.
I hope you understand that you are deserving of love, like everybody else.
And anything that is stopping you from succeeding, in life, or personally, shall subside, letting you find your true path.
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