I hate this I hate this I fucking hate this. Why can’t I be held and kissed and touched again. I wanna be loved like they truly mean it. I want physical affection. I want real physical affection. I just wanna be loved. I hate the fact that the chances to be physically loved were gone because of all the broken shit in my relationship. I just wanted to be held without anxiety and without anger. I hate my life and I hate everything and I miss being touched. I can’t do this anymore. Watching as everyone is able to hug and kiss their partners while I’m stuck here craving that same shit, crying my eyes out for two hours in my fucking bathroom, it’s so painful it’s so fucking painful and I don’t think I’ve ever hurt this much before.