@maybenot-finneas I used to deal with this a lot. I had friends but even though, i’d struggle to find my place, I’d feel lonely, but at the same time, i hated feeling lonely so i’d get depressed. It’s a completely normal thing, could be the result of depression, feeling empty due to loss, etc. Dont feel left out though, your friends care about you and will be there for you when you’re ready!