Itโs whatever, succumbing to it is definitely always on the hard side. Iโve just felt pretty alone these past few months
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RE: Heyaposted in Advice
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RE: Heyaposted in Advice
Thanks guys. Unfortunately Iโve given into some self-harm in the past, I interpret feeling pain into deservance, and as an outlet from being so hating on myself. You guys might not hate me, but I canโt help but give into the hate that has had time to shape itself against me
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Heyaposted in Advice
Maybe this wonโt be helpful if I decide to talk about this on this forum, or maybe it might be (Iโve known many of you for years) but Iโve been needing some reassurance because maybe Iโve been the one doing wrong
I guess Iโve just been, wanting to be personally loved and appreciated by a person I could call my girlfriend, but Iโve been through so many people itโs probably embarrassing and, I hate myself for it. The counterโs stopped at 6, at least of what I can remember. Each experience felt really nice, knowing that maybe this person was the one for me but as every one of those experiences went, it proved to be really heavy on me and light on them. I donโt think Iโve ever treated anyone badly or intentionally hurt, but a trend Iโve come to realize is just what pettiness can do in a relationship. I was cheated on twice, lied to, hurt because I in my honest heart didnโt know something my significant other may have taken it as. And those feelings when youโve felt hopeless and betrayed really affected me the most. I get so hypertensive I wish I could just reverse time.
I think I also overkill a lot of what I have done as a sign of my appreciation towards those people I wanted to love; some of you may know that I write my own music, and I often create pieces for a lot of them. I probably do so much that itโs considered a risk to continue.
I try really hard to find the peace whenever it is possible in a relationship, but the sad result has always been something that couldโve practically been prevented, and understanding their emotions in those situations is honestly my specialty, as long as they know I want to be genuine in helping them as their boyfriend.I just rarely open up about this, some of you lovely people might expect someone like me to be perfect but I have my flaws, and I have wishes to be personally known and loved, understood and embraced. Iโve had some acute depression over these years, also due to family, demands and events, but especially just, thinking about loneliness. I guess thatโs my fear because I always want to invite someone into my happiness and to share it with me. But itโs been very silent for me, emotionally.
Thanks for listening โค๏ธโ๐ฉน
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Wowzersposted in Blog
1.5 million views on a forum post is crazy! I never knew this got this many over the years
Also heyaa everyone! Howโs it going <3
