TW: Um abuse? Mom 2.
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@everyone Shazz_ @Depression-Anxiety-Therapy @Trans-3 (im not trans anymore im NB)
Date of incident: September 27
You may remember me from, https://mpp.community/forum/topic/38694/mom?_=1695997382042Hi, Im Lele and here is another day of my mom not being a mom.
This happened the day after “Mom.” And “Mom.” happened on the 26th I may have said the 23rd.
On the 27th I was irritated. My dad kept turning on the light in my room and I wanted to fall asleep. My energy was drained after playing with my sister. I turned the light off a couple of times but all he did was he kept turning it on. I turned it on a like fourth or sixth time and my mom surprised me by coming out of my closet. she grabbed the front of my forehead with her whole hand gripping it tightly like a football. she told me to turn off the light as I didn’t pay any bills around her and Own nothing. I turned on the light and sat on the bed. I had an angry face on but I didn’t know how angry the face was. she said “I don’t care about you pouting” I said I wasn’t pouting as pouting is when you make a Eh. Eh. Eh. Noise. She said “Your face is pouting.” Which made no sense. I went out of my room to clean my glasses but she stopped me saying she didn’t care if they were dirty and took them saying “It’s bedtime anyway you don’t need these.” Why was I trying to clean my glasses? because as she grabbed my head, her thumb smudged my glasses terribly. If I wasn’t wearing them she would’ve poked me in the eye. She told me to taKe out my trash so I did. I took it out angrily and got a bag. I noticed it was dirty so I washed it. My dad came downstairs and said “That’s enough you don’t need that much water" There was still soap in the can so i silently kept washing it. So he said “I said turn it off!” So I did. he said "Dry it” So i grabbed the towel but he didn’t like hand it to me he held on to it. I snatched it saying to give it to me because I needed to dry the can. he snatched it back and took the can to dry it himself. My mom came downstairs and blocked my way. I walked backwards down the stairs and by the back of the couch and she grabbed my arm gripping it really hard where it really hurt. I said don’t touch me which was a really brave thing for me to do as I never stand up for myself. But she said over and over again for like 40-60 seconds "Oh I can touch you." While aggressively Smothering her hands all over my face, arms, hair and, chest. then she said, “You know why? Because you’re mine.” (AKA Saying she owned me) after all that grabbing my face to make me look at her she made me sleep on the couch. oh and she ordered dad to send a blanket downstairs for me and I said "I don’t want a blanket." She said “i don’t care what you want, I thought I made that clear.” and walked up stairs. I sat there and prayed and cried. Now, yesterday the 28th she told me she isn’t going to baby me anymore and she’s gonna treat me how the world’ll treat me. and I bursted in my mind. That’s it.
Questions you may have:
Call cps or run away?I’m waiding to get an ID To prove I’m underaged. I also need to have my Social sacutity # and My birth certifitit. IDK Where any of those are. I also have 0 life experience so I’m waiting till I to to completely cut her off.
Are you okay mentally?
Physically, yes. No bruses. But mentally, Im not sure. I’m not getting like proper therapy only chatting with People on 7 cups.
Do I need to call the cops you sound brainwashed
Please dont <3 I promise I’ll respond everyday Everything is actually okay today she’s kinda cold towards me but other than that im okay.
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@Haven I Am So Sorry About Your Family, Honestly. You can live with me for a couple of days or so… I hope everything gets better…
They aren’t real good parents…
Be Strong!
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@YourLocalPansexual No im good. I’ll learn as much as I can In three years until im 18
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@Haven Alright… Just FYI, i’m always active if you need someone to talk to!! <333
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@YourLocalPansexual Okay thank you <3
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@Haven You’re Welcome!! <33
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@Haven idrk how to help but heres a wooper in a suit
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@kitkatgirlie Hehe I don’t need help i just wanted to vent <33
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@Haven well u still get CEO wooper ^-^
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@Haven
On the 27th I was irritated. My dad kept turning on the light in my room and I wanted to fall asleep. My energy was drained after playing with my sister. I turned the light off a couple of times but all he did was he kept turning it on. I turned it on a like fourth or sixth time and my mom surprised me by coming out of my closet. she grabbed the front of my forehead with her whole hand gripping it tightly like a football. she told me to turn off the light as I didn’t pay any bills around her and Own nothing.
… facepalm. Your dad turns on the light every single fucking time, and you turn it off, your mom was LITERALLY IN THE CLOSET the entire time (that’s creepy) and yells at you to turn off the lights? Like, your dad turned it on, why wouldn’t you not turn off the light? Yes, you do not pay the bills, but you at least have common sense. I don’t know why your mother did not notice your dad literally messing with the light anyway. That’s fucking stupid.
I turned on the light and sat on the bed. I had an angry face on but I didn’t know how angry the face was. she said “I don’t care about you pouting” I said I wasn’t pouting as pouting is when you make a Eh. Eh. Eh. Noise. She said “Your face is pouting.” Which made no sense.
I feel you - I get irritated whenever someone pisses me off but like this? I don’t slide with that. And also, I don’t think your mother learned vocabulary from years ago because as someone who plans to get in advanced reading, I FUCKING KNOW that pouting is literally making an Eh, eh eh noise.
I went out of my room to clean my glasses but she stopped me saying she didn’t care if they were dirty and took them saying “It’s bedtime anyway you don’t need these.” Why was I trying to clean my glasses? because as she grabbed my head, her thumb smudged my glasses terribly. If I wasn’t wearing them she would’ve poked me in the eye.
Thank god your glasses saved you, but also since your mother smudged her dirty ass fingers in your glasses, it’s HER fault.
She told me to taKe out my trash so I did. I took it out angrily and got a bag. I noticed it was dirty so I washed it. My dad came downstairs and said "That’s enough you don’t need that much water" There was still soap in the can so i silently kept washing it. So he said “I said turn it off!” So I did.
this logic is wild. i am so flabbergasted by your parents. they’re dumber than a low-functioning autistic person.
he said "Dry it" So i grabbed the towel but he didn’t like hand it to me he held on to it. I snatched it saying to give it to me because I needed to dry the can. he snatched it back and took the can to dry it himself.
Again, facepalm.
My mom came downstairs and blocked my way. I walked backwards down the stairs and by the back of the couch and she grabbed my arm gripping it really hard where it really hurt. I said don’t touch me which was a really brave thing for me to do as I never stand up for myself.
I’m glad that you stood up for yourself - that kind of move is wild. This inventory of shit your mother does is so predictable.
But she said over and over again for like 40-60 seconds "Oh I can touch you." While aggressively Smothering her hands all over my face, arms, hair and, chest. then she said, “You know why? Because you’re mine.” (AKA Saying she owned me)
UGH- EW, god… considering in my head that she looks like she doesn’t shower twice a day, that’s disgusting! Plus, the way she says “Because you’re mine” creeps me out the most.
after all that grabbing my face to make me look at her she made me sleep on the couch. oh and she ordered dad to send a blanket downstairs for me and I said "I don’t want a blanket." She said “i don’t care what you want, I thought I made that clear.” and walked up stairs.
I’m a little mad because I like blankets, but because this is your story, I will agree on this: it’s fine if you don’t want a blanket. Sometimes, I sleep without one
I sat there and prayed and cried. Now, yesterday the 28th she told me she isn’t going to baby me anymore and she’s gonna treat me how the world’ll treat me. and I bursted in my mind.
It doesn’t matter how the world treats you, and I hope your mother does not ‘baby you’ no more. I fucking hate when your mother gives you terrible trauma flashbacks like this. Even though the world will treat you like shit, you have us. I hope you’re okay.
(And I am sorry if this kind of made anyone pissed)
<-- larry, help 'em out
"Quotes are for dumb people who can't think of anything intelligent to say on their own." -Bo Burnham -
@laraiia u sleep without a blanket?!
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@kitkatgirlie rare occasions
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@laraiia still odd asf
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@laraiia said in TW: Um abuse? Mom 2.:
a low-functioning autistic person.
I laughed so hard bro XDD
@laraiia said in TW: Um abuse? Mom 2.:
UGH- EW, god… considering in my head that she looks like she doesn’t shower twice a day, that’s disgusting! Plus, the way she says “Because you’re mine” creeps me out the most.
She messed up my hair afterwards and I had to take it out of the braids it was In and put it in a bun. I’m also a perfectionist when It comes to my looks so I spent almost all night trying to lay my hair flat. Murmering to myself “I am pretty.”
@laraiia said in TW: Um abuse? Mom 2.:
I’m a little mad because I like blankets, but because this is your story, I will agree on this: it’s fine if you don’t want a blanket. Sometimes, I sleep without one
with all of the adrenaline i felt I was pretty hot :,)
@laraiia said in TW: Um abuse? Mom 2.:
Even though the world will treat you like shit, you have us. I hope you’re okay.
The world will at least not touch me Like she did, or grab my arm, or mess up my hair
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@Haven No cuz if they dare and lay a finger on u, tell me asap and i’ll break their face, arm, head, dick, ass, etc <333
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@YourLocalPansexual Your gonna snap my dad’s Dick Inhalf ?! 😲
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@Haven Of Course! 😌
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@Haven I am always highly interested in your posts lol
my mom surprised me by coming out of my closet
Im sorry, but my jaw ACTUALLY fell when I read this. She… came out of your CLOSET? That’s so creepy. I’d never be able to sleep at night knowing she’d lurk in there.
she grabbed the front of my forehead with her whole hand gripping it tightly like a football. she told me to turn off the light as I didn’t pay any bills around her and Own nothing
What?? D: That’s…actually so abusive… And I dont like her saying that you “own nothing.” :( That’s to disable and diminish you from having any power over anything, yknow. And that’s disgusting. Im so terribly sorry :(
“I don’t care about you pouting” I said I wasn’t pouting as pouting is when you make a Eh. Eh. Eh. Noise. She said “Your face is pouting.”
After how she treated you, you can’t even outwardly express any sense of sadness at all?? That is actually so scary. :( You definitely have the right to express sadness… Although, in this case, I do have some advice. With people like your mom, expressing negative emotions in front of them is a huge trigger to the narcissist. As hard as it is, you can’t cry or be sad in front of a narcissistic person. They can’t accept that they could ever do anything to make someone upset, and if you express it, they think you have a lot of nerve. Which is gross, and 100% not your fault. If you feel sad about her, it’s best to do it in private. It’s just to help you not get hurt.
Im noticing your dad is a jerk too.
I said don’t touch me which was a really brave thing for me to do as I never stand up for myself. But she said over and over again for like 40-60 seconds “Oh I can touch you.” While aggressively Smothering her hands all over my face, arms, hair and, chest. then she said, “You know why? Because you’re mine.” (AKA Saying she owned me)
Second time my jaw ACTUALLY dropped. WOW. I am speechless at this woman… She’s treating you like actual dirt :(((… She is completely diminishing.
I said “I don’t want a blanket.” She said “i don’t care what you want, I thought I made that clear.”
That is just plain disgusting. Wow.
Questions you may have:
Call cps or run away?
I’m waiding to get an ID To prove I’m underaged. I also need to have my Social sacutity # and My birth certifitit. IDK Where any of those are. I also have 0 life experience so I’m waiting till I to to completely cut her off.Are you okay mentally?
Physically, yes. No bruses. But mentally, Im not sure. I’m not getting like proper therapy only chatting with People on 7 cups.Do I need to call the cops you sound brainwashed
Please dont <3 I promise I’ll respond everyday Everything is actually okay today she’s kinda cold towards me but other than that im okay.I honestly think you’re doing the right thing with your choice to wait for now. You definitely will need your social security #, birth certificate, and life experience outside your household. I know some people think leaving without all that is better than staying in an abusive household, but it’ll be a huge hassle in the end when you don’t have those things. Especially the 0 life experience part lol. You’re really strong for understanding those things and not just doing the extreme by running away no matter the cost. You’ll get out of this tunnel. I beleive it.
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When I was a bit younger, my dad used to treat me the same way, usually just when he was drunk. He acted the same way occasionally when he was sober, but that’s irrelevant. He’d tell me I’m his property, that he can hit me as much as he wants. When I genuinely wanted to have a nice conversation with him he’d shut it down and get mad at me just for talking to him. And, despite doing that to me when I was young, he seems confused as to why I don’t like to hang out with him or talk to him anymore, and it’s really fucking appalling I have to explain to him why I am the way I am. Not only am I his flesh and blood so naturally I’d inherit SOME of his attitude, but I was directly raised by him my entire life. He’s not a likeable person, so of course, I’m not either, and I hate it. <3
Anyways, he’d threaten to kill me. Which he still does. For some reason he’d also get so fucking pissed at me just for having a goddamn face (really makes me wanna punch his bitchass just thinking about it) and he’d slap me. Like, “don’t give me that contempt look” HOW THE FUCK ELSE DO YOU WANT ME TO LOOK, HAPPY YOU’RE BEING A CACTUS DOWN SOMEONES THROAT? HOP OFF HOE
ok anywayAs I got older, I started getting more firm with what I do and don’t want, and I started uh… Getting a bit out of hand. I’d literally start fights with my dad. If he was pissing me off, I’d literally go right up to him and tell him my problems with his lousy ass. Of course, sometimes trying to justify myself, we’d literally get into physical fights. Busted his lip once, lol.
Now, the point I’m really getting at:
Being firm with my wants and needs, and how I think of him seemed to really help my situation, which I never really realized before. I do believe that I hurt his feelings (cuz he a pussy ass bitch) somewhat, because you know no parent that actually gives a flying fuck wants their child to tell them about how much they hate them. Ever since then, he hasn’t been wanting to fight me at all, and rarely does he throw childish fits at me.
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However, that’s for me as a person with one parent. I’m not saying you should do that, because that can always just make your situation work. It’s just a little backup recommendation. I hope you can get away from them as soon as possible :)
