impulsive decisions
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honestly, wasnt a horrible decision but anxiety is through the roof, adrenaline is running and adhd is taking over so i made a decision 💀
todays sucked tbh, my moms depressed, my adrenalines high from scares, cant see my bf until tomorrow, scared to talk to him cause i dont wanna trauma dump on him its a lot going on
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plus the usual person i talked to about this shit isnt in my life anymore so fuck yeah
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its honestly weird to be in the same space as someone who you dont want to associate with anymore, and its awkward as fuck and i feel like im acting like a different person so i just gave up cause it was causing me mental hell and anxiety
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and honestly? i dont need anymore of that after the shit thats happened in the past year.
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Love you Finn, take your time ❤️
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update: i had a breakdown, im fine now my eyes just hurt. im listening to music so im calmer, probably going to bed soon.
