I wanna be pretty... I want to be able to be loved... I want to be able TO love...

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

I hate my hands.
I hate my nails.
I hate my stomach.
I hate my lower legs.
I hate the skin on my legs and face.
I hate my back.
I hate my nose and lips.
I hate my knees and elbows.
I hate it.
I.
Hate.
Me.
Why can’t I look like the pretty girls at school…?
I wanna be pretty.
Why can’t I be pretty?

I don’t get it.

I wasn’t affected by him that much…was I?
He didn’t do anything to me.
So why is it so hard for me to say “I love you”?
Am I lovable?
Does he love me?
Does he love me for who I am?
Is there something wrong with me?
Am I broken?
Was it my fault?
Has it always been my fault?
Do I have to relearn how to love…?

“You are a useless, useless child.”

[Blake]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp …would you accept a platonic ‘i love you?’

[Raven]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp
Hey, there is nothing wrong with how you look!
You don’t need to; have to be pretty like them other girls, be pretty like yourself. <3
You have no need to hate yourself. The hate will only hurt you more. Loving yourself is what makes you the positive you, pookie.

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

Blake I mean, I’ll accept it, but I just…can’t say it back to anyone without feeling guilty, because the last guy I dated, I really liked and it turned out he was just a dick, so now I have to basically relearn how to love and be loved, because I don’t know what it’s supposed to feel like anymore.

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Raven-Rae

The hate will only hurt you more.

Unfortunately I can’t not feel like this. I always have a bout of this at least once every year, but this one is hitting really hard, and I just feel like I’m never good enough. :/

[Blake]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp Damn- i’m sorry abt that-

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp I’m so sorry you had to feel that. I know exactly what that feeling is and it’s absolutely horrible. I hope you feel better and i’m here if you need someone to talk to <3

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

Blake yeah. So I just generally feel like shit right now, and being surrounded by people who haven’t helped it at all. I have to spend at least an hour with them almost daily.
I’m always near the guy I dated who ended up being a liar and a cheater, and the girl who basically subtly body/fat-shamed me last year.

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@ur-fav-arsonist I appreciate it. Unfortunately, it’s probably just something I need to suck it up and get over and have a crisis over every year.

[Blake]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp oof…-

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

Blake yeah, it’s…it’s not fun. I’m going to tell you right now.
This crisis, plus the age crisis (please don’t ask, I might cry if I have to explain it), plus basically body dysmorphia is a bitch.

[Blake]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp I respect that. I won’t ask <3

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

Blake I appreciate it. Ty. <33

[Blake]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp Np <3