well here we are

[sorrows]

this is gonna be a long one
its not really a vent but its something that bothered me so, i thought itd fit a bit
so this today was a bit long, and sure, i love long times! slow days make me feel great sometimes
well today was not it
i had to stay home because of chest pain
normally staying home would be fun, just doing schoolwork at my own pace without being time limited and racing the bell
and it was! i did my schoolwork
the bad part was my chest
it hurt alot, i had to sit in my bed for a while
and my stepmom didnt do much other than put an icepack to my chest and give me ibuprofen and benadyrl until we went to the doctor at 3:00
then we waitied in the waiting room until we were called and i went into the thingie other waiting room and waited there with my stepmom until the doctor came in and did the same thing eith the last visit
checked my ears, eyes, throat, pressed on my chest (it still hurt ALOT) and i told them i was nauseous
and they recommended a covid test and my stepmom said yes
now heres the embarassing part
im (ashamedly) scared of covid tests
they hurt alot, and they swab for so unneccessarily much, around 5-6 times
so obviously im thinking “this is gonna hurt” and im secretly scared
the doctor leaves and another doctor comes in
with a covid test
im smiling because im nervous as hell and i obviously dont want this, even though it would be beneficial to know if im positive or negative
so i try to let her do it, but i keep moving my head and its not letting the doctor do her job
now i was going to stay still myself because i knew i needed to get this over with, but my stepmom comes over and hold my arms down and myself again the bed
this obviously makes me WAY more panicked than i already am, being that im literally being held down
it was so embarassing that i started crying
at my age, literally 17, crying over a covid test and being held down by my stepmom
because 1. im WAY too old to be panicked over this
2. i dont like being touched or literally held down
due to past things
after the doctor swabbed enough, she left with the covid test and i just sat there literally sniffling the entire time while my stepmom just sits back down watching instagram reels
idek how to feel
luckily it came back negative and then we left
im so tired
we also went to krogers and i couldnt even find the drink i wanted so that sucks aswell
so im just laying in bed right now tired and sad about a drink
i want pink lemonade brisk so bad
anyway
sorry if this doesnt really count as a vent but i didnt know where else to put this so my apologies

[walls]

sorrows covid tests fucking suck bro

Being RESTRAINED WHILE HAVING A SNEEZE INDUCING SWAB STUFFED AN INCH TOO FAR UP YOUR NOSE SOUNDS HORRIBLE-

I dont blame you for being upset

I hope your chest stops hurting soon

[sorrows]

@august i didnt even have to be restrained, smy stepmom just did and it made me panic way more than i was
and i also do hope my chest stops hurting
i have to not go to school tomorrow like the same thing i did today so i can go to the hospital to get an xray for my chest

[walls]

sorrows i hope nothing’s wrong!

[ɪɴꜰɪɴᴀ-ᴘʜᴏᴇɴɪx]

It’s okay, you’ll get through this, babe… You always do…

[sorrows]

@august if its serious, i hope it doesnt affect my chances into getting in the military

[sorrows]

ɪɴꜰɪɴᴀ-ᴘʜᴏᴇɴɪx i will
i hope so

[Blake]

sorrows Oh shit… that- Damn- You’ll get through it. I know you will. Gyattspeed, brave soldier

[ɪɴꜰɪɴᴀ-ᴘʜᴏᴇɴɪx]

Blake gyattspeed made me laugh more than it should’ve

[Blake]

ɪɴꜰɪɴᴀ-ᴘʜᴏᴇɴɪx LMAO

[sorrows]

Blake GYATTSPEED 😭😭

[Blake]

sorrows LOL