Sometimes I wish...
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Sometimes I wish I wasnβt who I am.
Sometimes I wish I wasnβt so smart.
Sometimes I wish I wasnβt so academically validated, that I crave to have the highest possible scores I can.
Sometimes I wish I wasnβt the βshining starβ Iβm made out to be.
Sometimes I wish I wasnβt put up onto a pedestal to be stared and gawked at, like some display.
Sometimes I wish I felt safe where I live.
Sometimes I wish I felt safe with people.
Sometimes I wish I could just see my people again.
Sometimes I wish I could just go home, where I donβt have to worry about the outside world.
Sometimes I wish I wasnβt born.
Sometimes I wish I was more useful.
Sometimes I wish I could be who I want to be, rather than who other people want me to be.
Sometimes I wish I could get away from this fucking hell of a world, and justβ¦be happy.
Sometimes, I wish I could go back to those days when I was but a small girl, sleeping in 'til noon.
Sometimes I wish I could go back to those days when my father would carry me inside and lay me down in my bed after a long car ride.
Sometimes, I wish I could go back to those days when I would be awoken in the early morning by the mourning doves, or by the train that passes by my nanaβs house at any given hour of the day.
Sometimes, I wish I could getβ¦comfort and solace.
Sometimesβ¦
Sometimesβ¦
Sometimesβ¦I wishβ¦I knew who I wasβ¦
Sometimesβ¦I wishβ¦I knew who I was meant to beβ¦ -
π€ππ’πππ°π±π¦ππ« ππ¬π©ππ π’π€ Oh-- dude- if you need someone to vent to, Iβm here. :)
