Hey guys I'm back
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@everyone Hey, guys, itโs me blank or ylnbk (your local non binary kiddo) Iโm sorry that Iโve been gone for so long, almost a year I have been taking over my will to go to a mental hospital and my computer has been taken back to the school, so I wasnโt able to get on here. My phone was also taken away, I just snuck on so everything isnโt so great, my mom thought that I had demons, she still thinks I have demons inside my head, has intrusive thoughts, and I think that I donโt have any, I even had to confess to God himself to deliver me. My mom threw away my suits, my mom threw away my boots, my chains, my mom told me to fix my makeup and make it lighter and more natural, I am not doing so great. After my first two therapy sessions with my therapist, I was doing fine, but then she removed me from both therapist and things just went downhill, she even guilt tripped me, admitted that she was doing it.
I miss the old me.
She is making me confess to God about my โgender confusionโ and lesbianism. Iโm bi btw.
I donโt have any pics of myself on here. This is all I found.
Iโm not gonna kms any more. I feel a sense of peace with myself. I still hate myself and how I look. I miss my suit (she threw it away and told me girls donโt wear suits)
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blank two OMFG HEY JESUS CHRIST ARE YOU OK!? MY LORD HUN- i hate ur parents they hoes but holy shit hey
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๐ปโ๐จ๐๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐๐๐๐/๐๐ถ๐พ๐๐จโ๐ป yeah Iโm aight heh
My dad is aight but itโs mostly my mom.
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blank two i mean my mum was the same
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๐ปโ๐จ๐๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐๐๐๐/๐๐ถ๐พ๐๐จโ๐ป my mom is making me read Bible verses every morning at 9:00 am
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blank two Oh my gosh Blank - Iโm honestly thrilled to see you back! What a nice surprise!
Much to take in, but after all of that Iโm really happy youโve found your own peace within yourself - whether itโs family issues and whatnot, you were able to push on through :)
Iโm sorry to hear about the guilt tripping though - I understand. -
Shazz_ yeahโฆ She also got mad that I called her a liar, I didnโt even say the word of just said, โI donโt know if thatโs trueโ when she was saying my friends were bad people
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blank two so does my mum but if you ever need to talk on how to handle things im here
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๐ปโ๐จ๐๐ฎ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐๐๐๐/๐๐ถ๐พ๐๐จโ๐ป if I can try ๐
Iโm not even supposed to have this phone rn
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blank two Yeah - I donโt think sheโd necessarily know if your friends are supposedly bad people, unless she had the chance to know them personally. Or has she?
Parents can make a lot of assumptions.
โ ๐ถ If words fail, music speaks! ๐ถ
๐๐๐๐ฅ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฅ! - Gumball -
Shazz_ she was trying toโฆ Idk the word but make me believe they were bad so I can make better choices in friends or make me believe they were bad so I can feel betrayed
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Shazz_ she made a whole ass story too
Ok, so my friends were going to the office and they were demanding to know where I was to even ask my counselor, which is weird because my counselor doesnโt even know them, and they donโt know my counselor, you donโt even know who my counselor is aware he is in the school, so thatโs how I knew it was a lie. She told me that they aggressively ask the principal, and they almost got in trouble for it. I thought to myself that that could be a sign that they really care, as I knew that I was suicidal, even though she was telling me "would you really believe your friends of two years over your mother who birthed you?! " she then snatched my glasses off my face breaking the lenses of the frame.
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blank two Yeah, I understand. I know thatโs wrong for her to do, forcingly at least. You deserve a lot honestly
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Shazz_ Iโm happy to talk to you shazz ๐
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Okay I re installed Instagram. wellโฆ Time to restart my career.
If yโall want you can choose what user or come up with one and choose a oc that I made a few hours ago
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Itโs here if ya canโt find it
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blank two Oh my- Iโm so sorry to hear that. She shouldnโt force you to do things that you donโt wanna do.
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Sapphire!!! well she has this rule if I live in her house I go by her rulesโฆ
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blank two Mann, I hate that kind of rule. But still. She should still let u have a lil freedom.
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blank two Oh my goshโฆ Firstly, I am so glad you are not suicidal anymore.
Iโm very relieved you are back for the time you have here. I was really wondering where you were. I know this might sound like Iโm just making things up, but I was actually very worried about you specifically. I had looked at the @Depression-Anxiety-Therapy the other day and it re-reminded me of how you had gone missing. Your final posts were very sad and I was so worried about your well being. I made a post here asking if anyone had seen you, but I unfortunately didnโt get any replies. Iโm sorry that your mom treats you this way. Considering your past posts about her, Iโm not surprised 1% that she admitted to guilt tripping you.
blank two said in Hey guys I'm back:
She also got mad that I called her a liar, I didnโt even say the word of just said, โI donโt know if thatโs trueโ
Saying you donโt think somethingโs true doesnโt mean youโre straight up calling someone a liar. It could mean theyโre mistaken. Like if I said โCalifornia is the largest state in the United States,โ itโs not like Iโm lying if I didnโt know that Texas is, yknow? Youre mom is probably mistaken about a lot. And from what Iโve read, she lies too.
blank two said in Hey guys I'm back:
she was trying toโฆ Idk the word but make me believe they were bad so I can make better choices in friends or make me believe they were bad so I can feel betrayed
I know precisely what you mean. Like trying to get you to paint the image like theyโre the bad guys and sheโs just trying to protect you. Yeah, thatโs genuinely jacked up. Extremely toxic and manipulative. Has she ever genuinely liked any friend youโve had? Because Iโll be honest with you, most likely no future friend will make your mom satisfied. Thatโs just how narcissistic people are (which you mentioned her being a narcissist in the past, right?).
blank two said in Hey guys I'm back:
Ok, so my friends were going to the office and they were demanding to know where I was to even ask my counselor, which is weird because my counselor doesnโt even know them, and they donโt know my counselor, you donโt even know who my counselor is aware he is in the school, so thatโs how I knew it was a lie. She told me that they aggressively ask the principal, and they almost got in trouble for it. I thought to myself that that could be a sign that they really care, as I knew that I was suicidal, even though she was telling me "would you really believe your friends of two years over your mother who birthed you?! " she then snatched my glasses off my face breaking the lenses of the frame.
Iโm sorry, Iโฆactually canโt believe what I just read. What??? That is absolutely disgusting. I have no words for this besides what the bloody heck is wrong with that woman. How does she even consider herself Christian and make you โcast out your demonsโ when sheโs acting like this?? That makes me so mad honestly.
I am so so sorry you have to fight through this with your momโฆ Iโd seriously like to start talking more with you in dmโs some time. Iโd really enjoy it. But if you canโt, I completely understand since I know youโre not supposed to be on here. But let me know if itโs a possibility
