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So about an hour ago, my mom sent me to watch the video that was an hour long and the hour long video is talking about jessabelle the spirit demon And she decided to list all of the known why jesabelle is controlling me She called me a controlling manipulative person and that I like to manipulate my dad because he doesnāt have the same religious beliefs as she does. She also told me that if I want to wear tank tops and or shorts, then I must wear them to bed and not around my dad. The part that really broke me to pieces is that she called me a manipulative and controlling person, even though sheās the one who is manipulative and control ing. Over a video that listed all the things that she doĆ©s. She also let me draw and I drew a character, and she said that I want to be that character, even though the character is white and has a mullet, and I donāt even want a mullet. she said that I want to be someone else who Iām not, even though she wants me to be someone else who Iām not. Now sheās talking about me in a hushed voice to her friend or her sister. Well, things didnāt get better. my wonderful most caring mother decided to make me watch 1 documentary and 1 church video for 3 hours I sat there. on the floor. For three hours. Then she put virgin oil on my forhead and prayed with her hand on my head. making me shake in fear because she was kinda scaring me. And she said, I want you to have friends I want you to go to school, I want you to have a job. Itās just you that is stopping your self. No itās jezabel who is stopping you. And the guy who was talking on the church video on YouTube was a homophobic/trans phobic dude who talked about abortion and how bad it was and talked about how 7 year olds chop off their privates to become the opposite gender because of the spirit of jezabel AND SHE GASLIT ME MULTIPLE TIMES TO ASKING IF I BELIEVED I HAVE A JEZABEL SPIRIT AND WHEN I SAID YES SHE DIDNāT BELIEVE ME BECAUSE IāM āBlInDeDā Sheās making me feel like my progress that Iāve made, (šš©š¬ šØšš šØšiš š©ššš® š ššš«šš£š© šššš£ššš šØš„šš§šš©ššš”š”š® šš«šš£ š©šš¤šŖšš š šššš£ššš š¢šš£š©šš”š”š® šš£š šāš¢ šš¤šš£š š¢šŖšš ššš©š©šš§ š©ššš£ š š¬ššØ š š®ššš§ ššš¤) and it makes feel like Iām not improving nor am I impressing her in how Iāve changed and matured. I know this may be a bit edgy but I feel like Im loosing it everyday. I might just snap one day.
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@nonexistence-groupSorry this is long
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blank two Im going to get started reading this lol
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@Duchess haha š„²
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blank two said in This close from having an outburst š¤:
list all of the known why jesabelle is controlling me
Huh?? Like listed a whole list of why this specific demon is controling you? What in the sam hillā¦
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blank two ā¦Is your mother perhaps Christian?
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@InvalidBandit how did you guess? She is VERY Christian and VERY religious
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@Duchess yes. It was like one of those ā5 signs your gayā videos on tiktok š
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blank two Man, just generally I hope that things get better for you, because nobody really deserves to be in a situation like that and have that kind of relationship with their mother
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blank two said in This close from having an outburst š¤:
and not around my dad.
WHOA Sheās THAT strict about clothes? Why is she even worried about your dad being scandalized by her own child. Itās not like you were trying to groom/flirt with him XD Thatās so demented!
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@InvalidBandit :p thank u
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@Duchess fr! She also doesnāt want me to wear a lot of make up like in my face reveal I just posted. She wants it natural and shii.
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blank two Well, Im Christian too so I get wanting your child to be modest and be educated about the dangers of demons and stuffā¦ But I can see how insulting it is to have your own mom think you had been influenced by this demon.
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@Duchess yeahā¦ Even though sheās the one obviously being a manipulative being.
Did you read the part where I said that she gaslit me then she admitted it? Like bruh
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blank two said in This close from having an outburst š¤:
even though she wants me to be someone else who Iām not.
Yeah, she wants you to change, thatās the thing. But she wants you to basically act like youāre changing to who you āactually are.ā
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blank two I havenāt gotten to that part yet. Let me read see though
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@Duchess couldnāt have said it better myself
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blank two said in This close from having an outburst š¤:
Itās just you that is stopping your self.
Okay. Iāve heard this darned quote before and it makes me very upset. Are you really the one stopping yourself from doing things? I mean. Seriously. Are you? Honestly, telling your kid theyāre the one stopping themselves from doing anythingā¦it sounds awful :( People would only say that if they didnāt like how your currently living your life
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@Duchess true š
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wowā¦ coming from a christian household i know how u feel. when me and my uncle came out, my mother didnt like it and would force us to read the bible and say how god doesnt like the lgbtq+ community and how they are all going to hell for what they are doing. when shes mad at me, she would talk about how im just a part of that community who is āconfusedā and needs to be set on the right path. ur mother is like my mother but x10 worse. when i had my phone she would send me videos of christian pastors and how being a part of the lgbtq+ community is wrong and that i will die because of my sins. it hurts, indeed it does. but u live ur life the way u want to. although thats family (i dont know how old u r), ur still able to make a choice and be happy. no one should make u feel bad for the way u are being treated. ur parents have lived their life and they are happy. its time for u to do the same. dont listen to them. do what u want unless its bad for u. u deserve better and i hope it gets better.
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blank two said in This close from having an outburst š¤:
1 documentary and 1 church video for 3 hours I sat there. on the floor. For three hours.
I donāt care what the intent is. To help you or what. But that sounds abusive. And it makes me mad because these are the Christians people are calling 'indoctrinators" :(
