It's been done
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Me and Alan, after hearing his explanation on why he said the things he said and did, have just ended our friendship. I hate myself now but I still have hope that he leads some kind of good life for himself. I just… can’t. This is the first friend I’ve willingly lost and I just really feel like dying right now. I feel like I made the best decision but I still hate myself for it. So much so that me and him spent the last 7 or so minutes of the call crying and wishing each other well. I didn’t want to do this but felt it was necessary and I wanted him to understand that. If he ever sees this post somehow, I’m sorry it had to end this way between us. I hate that this is how we had to go out and, if I could, I’d relive all the memories we made together over and over and over again. This will mostly likely be the final update on this matter for all of you. For me… it might be a rocky few weeks or months or… even longer, maybe. I’m gonna cry about this like a whiney bitch now.
