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    I miss her...I can't help but think it's my fault.

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    • Your Local Shadow SimpY
      π–€π”π”žπ”«π”’ 𝔇𝔬𝔒𖀐 Dumpster Fire Children
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      I honestly don’t care. I’m going to use names.
      Me and Sophia (Aspen) started dating back in late 6th grade, early 7th grade. I had gotten out of a bad relationship previously, and things happened, and she had told me she liked me a little bit after. I told her that I had felt the same. Unfortunately, I was an extremely closeted kid, who was terrified to tell my parents I had a girlfriend. (They eventually found out.) Despite me being so closeted and not able to say β€œI love you” or send certain colored hearts over text because at the time my mom went through my phone and it would get figured out, we stayed together. I eventually got Discord, got some friends and some people from here (Zeri/Jinx, Harper, and CatBlepBoi), and we would just talk. I had a mini-music group, (I called it my Choir Hell Server) and I introduced Sophia as my gf to them, and my mom found out. She wasn’t mad, but she was disappointed at the fact I didn’t tell her. I tried to explain that I wasn’t ready to tell her. She never brought it up again. Although…Late 8th grade…She was going through an Aro-Ace phase, and she told me that romantically loving people wasn’t something she wanted to do/wasn’t interested in at that time. I told her I understood. We were still friends. We still talked to each other daily. She ended up getting another partner (Ace-NB), and it hurt. It was so soon…
      …
      I had another partner later, and we lasted until November 16, 10:31 P.M. I honestly wasn’t that upset about that one. I had a feeling it would start to not work out. It was like an…early birthday present. I know that’s a terrible thing to say, but it just…wasn’t the same as what I was hoping for in a relationship.
      …
      Fast-forward to Valentine’s Day, 2024. Luke (BF/Partner-He/They-Trans) asks me to be their Valentine’s, and we start dating. I’m happy with them, but every once in a while…I just look at her and think β€œI wonder where we could have been if I hadn’t messed up so much. If she was still mine, and I hers.” She’s so pretty. She’s what I wish I could be. She’s perfect. She can make friends so easily, and she’s just such a kind caring soul. Gods, I miss her. It hurts to see her daily sometimes.
      …
      Songs I associate with her are I Hear A Symphony by Cody Fry and A Shitty Gay Song About You by Ezra Williams
      …
      TL;DR: I miss my ex-gf, and it wasn’t really my fault, but it feels like it. :P

      π”π”žπ”«π”’ 𝔇𝔬𝔒 𝔦𝔰 𝔴π”₯π”žπ”± 𝔱π”₯𝔒 𝔠𝔬𝔯𝔬𝔫𝔒𝔯 π”°π”žπ”¦π”‘, 𝔱π”₯𝔒𝔢 𝔣𝔬𝔲𝔫𝔑 π”ͺ𝔢 π”Ÿπ”¬π”‘π”Ά, 𝔫𝔬𝔱 π”ͺ𝔢 π”₯π”’π”žπ”‘. 𝔑𝔬 π”­π”žπ”―π”’π”«π”±π”° π” π”žπ”ͺ𝔒, 𝔰𝔬 𝔱π”₯𝔒𝔢 𝔫𝔒𝔳𝔒𝔯 π”©π”’π”žπ”―π”«π”’π”‘ π”ͺ𝔢 π”«π”žπ”ͺ𝔒, 𝔬𝔯 𝔴π”₯𝔬 β„‘ 𝔲𝔰𝔒𝔑 𝔱𝔬 π”Ÿπ”’. 𝔐𝔢 𝔩𝔦𝔣𝔒, π”žπ”« 𝔲𝔫𝔯𝔒𝔰𝔬𝔩𝔳𝔒𝔑 π”ͺ𝔢𝔰𝔱𝔒𝔯𝔢. 𝔉𝔯𝔬π”ͺ π”žπ”°π”₯𝔒𝔰 β„‘ π”΄π”žπ”° π”ͺπ”žπ”‘π”’, π”žπ”«π”‘ π”žπ”°π”₯𝔒𝔰 β„‘ 𝔯𝔒𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔫. 𝔄𝔫𝔑 𝔰𝔬 β„‘ π”΄π”žπ”©π”¨ π”žπ”©π”¬π”«π”’ π”žπ”«π”‘ 𝔴𝔬𝔫𝔑𝔒𝔯 𝔴π”₯𝔢?

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