Sometimes I wish...

[Your Local Freak]

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t who I am.
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so smart.
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so academically validated, that I crave to have the highest possible scores I can.
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t the ‘shining star’ I’m made out to be.
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t put up onto a pedestal to be stared and gawked at, like some display.
Sometimes I wish I felt safe where I live.
Sometimes I wish I felt safe with people.
Sometimes I wish I could just see my people again.
Sometimes I wish I could just go home, where I don’t have to worry about the outside world.
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t born.
Sometimes I wish I was more useful.
Sometimes I wish I could be who I want to be, rather than who other people want me to be.
Sometimes I wish I could get away from this fucking hell of a world, and just…be happy.
Sometimes, I wish I could go back to those days when I was but a small girl, sleeping in 'til noon.
Sometimes I wish I could go back to those days when my father would carry me inside and lay me down in my bed after a long car ride.
Sometimes, I wish I could go back to those days when I would be awoken in the early morning by the mourning doves, or by the train that passes by my nana’s house at any given hour of the day.
Sometimes, I wish I could get…comfort and solace.
Sometimes…
Sometimes…
Sometimes…I wish…I knew who I was…
Sometimes…I wish…I knew who I was meant to be…

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Shadow-Simp Oh-- dude- if you need someone to vent to, I’m here. :)