can i finally be freed (TW: suicide)

[blackpearlscuddleslut]

i wanna be freed from this hellhole
im making everyone dissapointed
they say im not
but i know
deep down
they want me gone
they want me fucking dead
they just want me to die
which i will probably do that
i dont care anymore
i just feel like im making everyone feel sad
and yet i feel so guilty
but yet they do deserve it
theyre fucking idiots

i cant stand it no more
im gonna end it soon
im tired of them using me
like im some jester for them
im tired of them throwing me about
and im tired of making myself think that its all my fault
i keep thinking theyre laughing at me
i just
dont know
everythingsmyfaulteverythingsmyfaulteverythingsmyfaulteverythingsmyfaulteverythingsmyfault
its all my fault
why
i just make them annoyed
so why should i bother

im fucking tired
i wanna end it

[blackpearlscuddleslut]

its somebody else fault
but NOOO
they blame it on me
because they know its gonna get me worked up
so now
they know whats gonna happen next

[A Former User]

@blackpearlsplaything I’m so sorry you feel this way. I hope things get better for you, Siloxa. You’re strong. I know you are. You matter. Everybody else that has a problem with you can fuck off. They’re just mad you’re better than them. I hope things get better for you. I’m proud of you for surviving this far. All we can do is live. 💚

[blackpearlscuddleslut]

@YangyangsSluttyCunt dude tysm this acc made my day <3

[A Former User]

@blackpearlsplaything You’re welcome. That’s what bsfs are there for. Right? So why would I not try and make your day.

[Infina-Phoenix]

If you do it, I will break the gate between life and death to forcefully bring you back.

[blackpearlscuddleslut]

Infina-Phoenix HELP I LOVE THIS THANK YOU