life update + song of the day

[quasar]

met someone start of junior year, became friends, now he’s my bf 😼 mexican, 5’11, best person on the wrestling team
after quitting mppc, I seem to have lost the ability to truly hold a conversation with anyone; graduating HS in 5 months

https://open.spotify.com/track/5y7I9BKKDVZoqB0CHlc5zc?si=elkls8GyR-yw94c4-PYE3A

Envy poisons the air
I’m running out of breath now!
Envy poisons the air
I need to fucking break out!
Clouds of malevolence
The orchid’s withered silhouette
Consumed by grudge and the demons bathing in despair
Envy poisons the air
The air, the air

Hate you (Hate you)
With all my flesh and bone (my bone)
Hate you (Hate you)
Like the sun hates the moon
Feel the demon sit on my shoulder (shoulder)
Looking in the mirror I know (I know)
Temptation fills the aroma
But she don’t know that I am a soldier (uh)
Gotta do this on my own
Make it through the rain, the hail, the storm
On the quest to find my soul
Claw my way out this mental maze of thorns
I hate you, oh yes I hate you, ooh hoo
Like the ocean hates the blue
Oh I hate you, just know I hate you, ooh hoo
I’m hoping that you crash and burn
Ah!

Break out!
Break out!
Break out!
Break!
Break out!
Break out!
Break out!
Fuck!
Break out!
Break out!
Break out!
Break!
Break, out!
Now break out!
Now break out!

Hoo
I fucking hate you
Hoo ooh oh ooh
I fucking hate you
Ooh
I fucking hate you
Hoo ooh oh ooh
Hate you

In the depths of their soul, a flicker of light
Whispers of forgiveness, hidden from sight
But darkness prevailed, consuming their core
As they lived in vengeance, forevermore
Forevermore!