Hes so amazing, i love him so much, so so much, i hope hes my forever, not to be a simp or anything though

I feel like relapsing, i have for a while, i want to see the blood from where i cut, i wanna see my skin torn up, i wanna see it just to feel something… I want nic but being the idiot i am i told someone and they told my adult. I want to run, run until im in so much pain i pass out. And hopefully not wake up. And it feels like i cant tell anyone that my mental state is so sbit rn. Fuck even my therapist thinks im ok, she put my next appointment in October from April. I cant go that long. My antidepressants arent working. There is like 2 things that make me happy. And even then i wanna cry. I dont wanna be here. But i have to be the happy always here person. I have to be ok fir others. I need to help. It doesn’t matter if im ok as long as others are…

@soft-boy <33333

kitkatgirlie you can’t have it, is mine heheheheh

@sadboy_bees you stole my heart a while ago

I like want to talk here but I also don’t know what to talk about or if I even should ngl lol

@sadboy_bees I love you too pretty boy<3

@claybzz i love you!!