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@claybzz i love you!!

I feel like relapsing, i have for a while, i want to see the blood from where i cut, i wanna see my skin torn up, i wanna see it just to feel something… I want nic but being the idiot i am i told someone and they told my adult. I want to run, run until im in so much pain i pass out. And hopefully not wake up. And it feels like i cant tell anyone that my mental state is so sbit rn. Fuck even my therapist thinks im ok, she put my next appointment in October from April. I cant go that long. My antidepressants arent working. There is like 2 things that make me happy. And even then i wanna cry. I dont wanna be here. But i have to be the happy always here person. I have to be ok fir others. I need to help. It doesn’t matter if im ok as long as others are…

@Winnie_the_Bitchless 420 is another name for marijuana, so april 20th [in America] is 4/20 day

@sadboy_bees I love you too pretty boy<3

Hes so amazing, i love him so much, so so much, i hope hes my forever, not to be a simp or anything though

Literally 5 chicken nuggets, and chips, slay ig lol

“I unblocked you btw” like literally get the hell out of my life, I don’t want you in it. I don’t care. Couldn’t care any less. I was happy with you not in my life. But I’m stuck seeing you every damn day. It’s not like I want to talk to you. Please exit my life and get hit with the door. You didn’t give a shit about me when we were dating so why do you care now. You didn’t talk to me for months when we were together. So keep doing that. I don’t want you in my life. [this is very targeted at my ex, Id say it to them but like they go to school with me]

Anyway, I just need to put this somewhere. And here happens to be the only place I really can right now ig.

Why is my age 2023?

My dad was online earlier and like my messages never went completely through, like they sent but weren’t delivered, like why?

Like my messages to everyone else send, but his can’t?

And I still don’t have it lol

Someone yesterday says that they bring your hoodie today, and then instead they put it in their washer and that was the same excuse two months ago when you asked for it back and they said they’d bring it tomorrow.

@soft-boy <33333

I’m crying over this now, how sad/sar

BOTH of my parents have decided to show up in my life at the same time and my mom’s always off and on so like yeah I knew she would at some point, but like my dad??? And like I want him in my life, but what if he’s homophobic, what if he’s transphobic? He said he has an apartment in *****, but he didn’t say the city in ***** or the state hours away. Does he expect me to be comfortable going back to the hours? The Tuesday Thursday and every other weekend? Do I want to go even? What if everything is different? what if it’s the same? Do I want it to be different? I don’t even know at this point…

Imma be in a big town all day, I should have like slept better last night but like I didn’t want to ig

But instead I woke up an hour earlier than planned

I like want to talk here but I also don’t know what to talk about or if I even should ngl lol