It’s the way I want constant reassurance, The way I crave attention more than I probably should, The way I feel almost needy just for someone’s presence. And I hate it, because I don’t want to be “ too much ” for people. I don’t want them to see me as annoying or overwhelming. But at the same time, I can’t help it. I just want to be close, To be safe. To know that somebody won’t leave me behind. It’s exhausting. Being this self aware, But still not knowing how to stop. I just wish I could be " enough " without needing so much. I wish I could be easy to love. Easy to stay with, But Instead, I feel like Iam constantly fighting this hard part of myself that wants more. more. more. more. and more. It sounds like greed to the point where that sickens me. My clingyness sickens me, My greed sickens me, I sicken me. It’s filthy. I don’t wanna keep draining people for my fuckery. It sickens me so much to see how horrible I am. And It’s disgusting. Absolutely Disgusting and sickening.

I’m only gonna say this once, and I really don’t care if I hurt anybody’s feelings

If somebody vents to you about a personal thing, Don’t make it all about you. That’s selfish and immature. It’s not all about you, And it never will be. If you want to vent, Vent after them, Don’t just say “ Oh, that’s sad, But I had worse “ Did you really? No. Not everything is about you. You will never be the center of attention if you keep acting like that. You’re acting like you’re the only one that matters.

I just had to deal with one, Who happened to be my ex, Yuki. I mostly call her by her real name, Yolani. (She doesn’t deserve to be hidden anonymously dude.) And she’s been manipulating me our whole " relationship " and practically cheated on me. We were gonna work it out, but she blamed it all on me, so I had to waste half of my sleep time to cuss her out. I’m like still crying, And I’m tired. This combo really isn’t helping whatsoever. But I needed to get this off my chest BADLY.

brushed my teeth, cleaned my room, and read 2 books

all while listening to my beautiful msi, and jimmy’s voice on low volume, i love you jimmy urine, no one can ever tske you away from me, ever ever

Wubbrle the [REDACTED] ahh, thank youu 😭😭

YES, I had their consent

My eyes would’ve been closed 6 years ago .

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn’t cut it as a poor man stealing
Tired of livin’ like a blind man
I’m sick of sight without a sense of feeling
And this is how you remind me

This is how you remind me of what I really am
This is how you remind me of what I really am

It’s not like you to say sorry
I was waitin’ on a different story
This time I’m mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin’
And I’ve been wrong, I’ve been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream, “Are we havin’ fun yet?”

Yet, yet, yet, no, no
Yet, yet, yet, no, no

It’s not like you didn’t know that
I said, “I love you,” and I swear I still do
And it must have been so bad
‘Cause livin’ with me must have damn near killed you

And this is how you remind me of what I really am
This is how you remind me of what I really am

It’s not like you to say sorry
I was waitin’ on a different story
This time I’m mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin’
And I’ve been wrong, I’ve been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream, “Are we havin’ fun yet?”

Yet, yet, yet, no, no
Yet, yet, yet, no, no
Yet, yet, yet, no, no
Yet, yet, yet, no, no

Never made it as a wise man
I couldn’t cut it as a poor man stealin’
And this is how you remind me
This is how you remind me

This is how you remind me of what I really am
This is how you remind me of what I really am

It’s not like you to say sorry
I was waitin’ on a different story
This time I’m mistaken
For handing you a heart worth breakin’
And I’ve been wrong, I’ve been down
Been to the bottom of every bottle
These five words in my head
Scream, “Are we havin’ fun yet?”

Yet, yet, are we havin’ fun yet?
Yet, yet, are we havin’ fun yet?
Yeah, yeah (These five words in my head scream)
Are we havin’ fun yet?
Yeah, yeah (These five words in my head)
No, no

It makes me so sick how ungrateful kids are being now.

I’m greatful for what I get because I know my parents work hard to get me what they can afford. Ungrateful people make me sick to my stomach because they act so greedy and bratty. It’s so disgusting to hear how kids actually sound when they’re ungrateful. We need more kids to be more grateful for what they get. I know they’re kids, But it’s so disgusting to know they throw a tantrum and a fit because they don’t get what they want. You get what you get, And you don’t get upset. It’s absolutely trifling how these kids are. And most of them are also teens, They’re old enough to understand that they aren’t supposed to be this greedy. The fucking brattiness and tantrums and greed make me so sick to my stomach where I just wanna throw up. Yes, I was like this when I was a kid, But I’m 14 now and I know how hard my parents work. Getting something is better than getting nothing at all. That’s all, Cha Hyun Su Out.

Blake Skinamarink.

I’m draining people, Because I’m scared of my insecurities and scared to let somebody go. It hurts to see how many people I know leave me because of it. And it’s terrible. I’m scared, And I don’t know what to do. I’m really worried, Really scared. I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t know how to stop being this version of myself that feels like too much. All I know is that I’m scared. Really scared.

Beep Beep, Richie!

Blake @Siloxa922

Blake -69/10

Oh to have grades like yours, 100/10

IT 2017 was 27 years after IT 1990.

If you don’t get it, Pennywise attacks every 27 years.

Blake oh my god, stop, thank you so much, 😭😭 You’re so sweet wtff ☹️☹️ Also like— I didn’t think you’d actually even remember it 💔💔

@your_search_history_scares_me no cuz I kinda agree with you

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Blake @Siloxa922 Wubbrle the [REDACTED]

She said thank you !!then called me the F Slur (she takes. After my bsf named Coral)

@petefromeltingville
Blake
@Siloxa922