Got suspended from school yesterday. (TW ;; Self Harm, Etc)

[KayaRoseWho]

Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . I’m not good at helping but I’m here to listen. It will get better. I understand this feeling and such, you r not alone. I suggest trying to find other way to stop doing it. See if you are able to get silicone stress thingy I forgot what it’s called but the silicone and has spikes on it and you squeeze it and it gives you that feeling but like it doesn’t hurt you and it doesn’t like do anything if you know what I mean.

[ayin]

Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . okay but quick question, why the fuck are you self harming IN SCHOOL of all places. you could’ve done it anywhere else even. not saying this is invalidation but you genuinely need to have a reality check.
i feel a mental hospital WILL help you get back on your feet unless your experiences there are terrible but again, i’ve never truly been in one and i researched how it looks/feels like. even your therapist will probably recommend it for you

stay safe but dude please just not do that somewhere where someone may have a fear of blood (hemophobia) or wounds (?phobia) you’re weird for that shit

[piddles]

ayin In this person’s defense, school is a place where students are unsupervised by their parents, so if you think about it, I can understand why they harmed at school and not at home. No, they shouldn’t be harming themselves, but respectfully, a “reality check” cannot heal the trauma causing it in the first place.

Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . I understand that harm against yourself feels like the only way to escape your feelings towards your situation, but it is certainly not the “best” option. The best option is talking to someone about what is going on and sorting through your feelings with them before they turn into regrettabe actions. I can guarantee that harm is not the solution, and in fact, only allows your trauma to dictate your life further.

If you need someone to talk to, dm me and I can give you my discord. I’m active daily, so you can talk to me any time and I will listen and do my best to help.

[yawnzzn]

KayaRoseWho , piddles thank you two for the support. I’m kinda getting better right now, I’ve just been going thru a lot.

as for ayin

why the fuck are you self harming IN SCHOOL of all places. you could’ve done it anywhere else even.

I self harmed in school because I felt like it was the safer option, plus, if I self harmed at home, I wouldve gotten yelled at n most likely beat for my actions. which honestly would’ve made things worse. I wasn’t doing it for attention or because I thought it was “ cool ”. I was already overwhelmed and trying to get through things the only way I knew at that moment. School felt like the only place where I wouldn’t immediately get punished for breaking down.

you genuinely need to have a reality check.

I do not think that will help me get back on my feet. And Considering that something is wrong with me. Reality checks will NOT fix what’s happening to me. Im aware that something is wrong with me.

you’re weird for that shit

Again, I stated why I said it was my fault, You didn’t need to point that out again. I said and I quote " And before anybody says its my fault, I know it is. I know I shouldn’t have cut myself, but it was literally the only best option ". Therefore I do blame myself. Saying that I’m weird for that genuinely hurts my feelings. You could’ve said it a different way. I already admitted that I blame myself for what happened, so repeating it or calling me weird doesn’t help anything. I literally explained why I made that choice, even if it wasn’t healthy. You don’t have to agree with what I did, but there was a better way to respond than insulting me for it. I’m already struggling enough with my own thoughts, and comments like that just make me feel worse instead of understood.

[KayaRoseWho]

Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . honestly they’re replay made me pissed off. Because like nobody should ever be mean about it this is a vent topic to vent to listen and for advice the way that they want about it and how they talked about it wasn’t OK they should not have said you need a reality check or that you’re weird for that shit because I can just make the person depending on the person who is venting could make them feel even worse about it, which I am. Sorry if they made you feel even worse about it.

If you need somebody to talk to, you can talk to me and I’ll listen to you. I’m not good at advice, but I will definitely listen to you and be here for you.
Everything will get better and you’re gonna be OK❤️ (used voice to text bc my fingers hurt from playing a game lol)

[yawnzzn]

KayaRoseWho Thank you so much for understanding me. This made me feel a little bit better and I’m glad that me n you feel the same way Abt what they said to me, I thought I was just overreacting and / or being dramatic, Thank you for this.

[KayaRoseWho]

Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . you are welcome

[ayin]

Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . even if it’s a way to break down, there is literally other methods to do so than doing that in school. i wont even be mad if you did it in the bathroom but in class??? i see why considering your home life and everything you faced, and i know you didnt do that shit for attention but it’s still weird as fuck to do so??? your feelings matter yes but like. be serious right now that’s just. eugh.

[ayin]

white people be like: yeah i think SH’ing in class is a good way to break down my feelings

[ayin]

piddles hello there is different ways to DEAL WITH TRAUMA!!! SH is an UNHEALTHY COPING MECHANISM and i KNOW it is hard for them to quit however they could deal with it in ANOTHER WAY that won’t HARM THEMSELVES and won’t harm OTHERS

coming from someone who used SH as a coping mechanism multiple times at one point; mending

[ayin]

i hope you’re okay, i hope it all goes well
please bandage your wounds carefully or if the nurse did it i don’t know
try to keep clean, maybe find projects that could help stop cutting. again theres the butterfly project and i shared a method i think
knowing i went through similar trauma, i understand why you do so in the first place.
still though, don’t do that anywhere publicly. that can definitely make your life worse as it is right now. i wish you the best, recover safe, sorry if i was like harsh but my points stand.