Why do I always need to prove myself to others?
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It frustrates me to a level I canβt even put into words.
Why do I have to cry when Iβm frustrated?
Why do I have to be like this?
Why am I even here?
I should be out proving myself to someone else, or some bullshit. -
Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ nobody should prove themself- unless they did something shitty- which u didnβt
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@Poptart_Yeeter then why do I have to seem to prove myself, no matter who I meet?
Why do I have to do it to be respected, or even seen?
Iβm no different from any other person. -
@Poptart_Yeeter So why do they get to be seen at a whim, and I have to work just to be seen?
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Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ said in Why do I always need to prove myself to others?:
So why do they get to be seen at a whim, and I have to work just to be seen?
I donβt know-
maybe theyβre jelly cuz youβre a good person and theyβre not? -
@Poptart_Yeeter but some of them are the best people Iβve ever met.
I donβt understand.
Iβm no different.
So why me? -
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@Poptart_Yeeter thatβs what Iβm trying to figure out.
Why do I have to be the one who puts in more work than everyone else, and still get the same results?
Why do I have to be the one whoβs exhausted, even if I didnβt do anything wrong? -
@Poptart_Yeeter Itβs so tiring and mentally and physically draining, and I just canβt keep up sometimesβ¦
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@Poptart_Yeeter donβt be sorry. Itβs clearly my fault, according to other people. Everything manages to be my fault.
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Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ How do you know itβs your fault? Your life consists of toxic people. Usually you canβt change them so just walk away
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@Poptart_Yeeter and leave behind my passion of music? Leave behind my chance to go to State Solo/Small Ensemble? State Large Group? All State?
Naturally, you see my dilemma.
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Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ Oh- Well I donβt know what to do- Iβm sorry.
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Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ Thatβs like me giving up being a author. itβs not gonna happen
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@Poptart_Yeeter exactly. So unfortunately, because of that, I have to have the toxic people in my life, whether I like it or not. And we kind of have to like each other, because we need to work together as a team for our ensembles to be the best they can be.
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@Poptart_Yeeter even if one of them is basically a fucking criminal. But thatβs a different story for a different day. Or for the DMs if youβre that curious, because I donβt remember if Iβve told you about him.
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Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ said in Why do I always need to prove myself to others?:
. Or for the DMs if youβre that curious,
u havent told me about him but its good if u dont wanna
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@Poptart_Yeeter I can lmao. I will out this man literally every chance I get.
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