Why do I always need to prove myself to others?
-
I donβt understand.
Why do I always have to prove myself to other people?
How many more times do I have to prove myself to be seen?
As a person?
As a musician?
Iβm tired.
Iβm exhausted.
It doesnβt seem to matter who I meet, I need to prove myself.
Over and over.
With everyone I meet.
I do everything right.
So why?
Why do I have to prove myself?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Iβm so tired of it.Iβm so tired of having to prove myself.
Iβm so tired of bringing myself down to match the levels of others.
Iβm so tired of being treated like trash.
Iβm so tiredβ¦βπΌ πΆπ π½πππππ. πΌ π½πΆππ π·πππ π½πππππ. πΌ ππΆπ π·πππ π½πππππ. π²π½πΆπ πΉπ πΌ ππππΉ?
πΌ πΆπ ππππππ½πΎππ. πΌ π½πΆππ π·πππ ππππππ½πΎππ. πΌ ππΆπ π·πππ ππππππ½πΎππ. π²π½πΆπ πΈππππΉ πΌ π·π?β
-ππΎπππππΎΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½-ππ’πͺπ’π«π±π¬ ππ¬π―π¦-βΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€
-
It frustrates me to a level I canβt even put into words.
Why do I have to cry when Iβm frustrated?
Why do I have to be like this?
Why am I even here?
I should be out proving myself to someone else, or some bullshit. -
Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ nobody should prove themself- unless they did something shitty- which u didnβt
-
@Poptart_Yeeter then why do I have to seem to prove myself, no matter who I meet?
Why do I have to do it to be respected, or even seen?
Iβm no different from any other person. -
@Poptart_Yeeter So why do they get to be seen at a whim, and I have to work just to be seen?
-
Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ said in Why do I always need to prove myself to others?:
So why do they get to be seen at a whim, and I have to work just to be seen?
I donβt know-
maybe theyβre jelly cuz youβre a good person and theyβre not? -
@Poptart_Yeeter but some of them are the best people Iβve ever met.
I donβt understand.
Iβm no different.
So why me? -
-
@Poptart_Yeeter thatβs what Iβm trying to figure out.
Why do I have to be the one who puts in more work than everyone else, and still get the same results?
Why do I have to be the one whoβs exhausted, even if I didnβt do anything wrong? -
@Poptart_Yeeter Itβs so tiring and mentally and physically draining, and I just canβt keep up sometimesβ¦
-
-
@Poptart_Yeeter donβt be sorry. Itβs clearly my fault, according to other people. Everything manages to be my fault.
-
Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ How do you know itβs your fault? Your life consists of toxic people. Usually you canβt change them so just walk away
-
@Poptart_Yeeter and leave behind my passion of music? Leave behind my chance to go to State Solo/Small Ensemble? State Large Group? All State?
Naturally, you see my dilemma.
-
Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ Oh- Well I donβt know what to do- Iβm sorry.
-
Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ Thatβs like me giving up being a author. itβs not gonna happen
-
@Poptart_Yeeter exactly. So unfortunately, because of that, I have to have the toxic people in my life, whether I like it or not. And we kind of have to like each other, because we need to work together as a team for our ensembles to be the best they can be.
-
@Poptart_Yeeter even if one of them is basically a fucking criminal. But thatβs a different story for a different day. Or for the DMs if youβre that curious, because I donβt remember if Iβve told you about him.
-
Φ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€βΛβΊβ§ββ½π π’π©π©ππ‘π¬π«π«πβΎββ§βΊΛβΦ΄ ΰ£ͺπ€ said in Why do I always need to prove myself to others?:
. Or for the DMs if youβre that curious,
u havent told me about him but its good if u dont wanna
-
@Poptart_Yeeter I can lmao. I will out this man literally every chance I get.
