Why do I always need to prove myself to others?
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I donโt understand.
Why do I always have to prove myself to other people?
How many more times do I have to prove myself to be seen?
As a person?
As a musician?
Iโm tired.
Iโm exhausted.
It doesnโt seem to matter who I meet, I need to prove myself.
Over and over.
With everyone I meet.
I do everything right.
So why?
Why do I have to prove myself?
Why?
Why?
Why?
Iโm so tired of it.Iโm so tired of having to prove myself.
Iโm so tired of bringing myself down to match the levels of others.
Iโm so tired of being treated like trash.
Iโm so tiredโฆโ๐ผ ๐ถ๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ผ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ผ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐น๐ ๐ผ ๐๐๐๐น?
๐ผ ๐ถ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐. ๐ผ ๐ฝ๐ถ๐๐ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐. ๐ผ ๐๐ถ๐ ๐ท๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฝ๐พ๐๐. ๐ฒ๐ฝ๐ถ๐ ๐ธ๐๐๐๐น ๐ผ ๐ท๐?โ
-๐๐พ๐๐๐๐๐พ"๐ผ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐พ๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐น๐ถ๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ผ'๐น ๐ถ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ป๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฝ๐๐ ๐ท๐๐ถ๐๐๐พ๐ป๐๐ ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐พ๐๐ฝ๐ ๐พ๐."
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It frustrates me to a level I canโt even put into words.
Why do I have to cry when Iโm frustrated?
Why do I have to be like this?
Why am I even here?
I should be out proving myself to someone else, or some bullshit. -
@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp nobody should prove themself- unless they did something shitty- which u didnโt
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@Poptart_Yeeter then why do I have to seem to prove myself, no matter who I meet?
Why do I have to do it to be respected, or even seen?
Iโm no different from any other person. -
@Poptart_Yeeter So why do they get to be seen at a whim, and I have to work just to be seen?
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@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp said in Why do I always need to prove myself to others?:
So why do they get to be seen at a whim, and I have to work just to be seen?
I donโt know-
maybe theyโre jelly cuz youโre a good person and theyโre not? -
@Poptart_Yeeter but some of them are the best people Iโve ever met.
I donโt understand.
Iโm no different.
So why me? -
@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp โฆI donโt know.
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@Poptart_Yeeter thatโs what Iโm trying to figure out.
Why do I have to be the one who puts in more work than everyone else, and still get the same results?
Why do I have to be the one whoโs exhausted, even if I didnโt do anything wrong? -
@Poptart_Yeeter Itโs so tiring and mentally and physically draining, and I just canโt keep up sometimesโฆ
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@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp Iโm sorry-
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@Poptart_Yeeter donโt be sorry. Itโs clearly my fault, according to other people. Everything manages to be my fault.
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@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp How do you know itโs your fault? Your life consists of toxic people. Usually you canโt change them so just walk away
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@Poptart_Yeeter and leave behind my passion of music? Leave behind my chance to go to State Solo/Small Ensemble? State Large Group? All State?
Naturally, you see my dilemma.
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@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp Oh- Well I donโt know what to do- Iโm sorry.
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@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp Thatโs like me giving up being a author. itโs not gonna happen
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@Poptart_Yeeter exactly. So unfortunately, because of that, I have to have the toxic people in my life, whether I like it or not. And we kind of have to like each other, because we need to work together as a team for our ensembles to be the best they can be.
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@Poptart_Yeeter even if one of them is basically a fucking criminal. But thatโs a different story for a different day. Or for the DMs if youโre that curious, because I donโt remember if Iโve told you about him.
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@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp said in Why do I always need to prove myself to others?:
. Or for the DMs if youโre that curious,
u havent told me about him but its good if u dont wanna
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@Poptart_Yeeter I can lmao. I will out this man literally every chance I get.
