You’re genuinely fucking fake. You don’t care about me, Nor my feelings. You never fucking did. You rely on me to be there for you, But you never do the same for me. You’re utterly fucking disgusting. I wish I never became your goddamn fucking friend. You’re shitty. Not just as a friend, But also as a person. I hope you bump into the wrong people and end up like me. Vulnerable and Broken. I hope nothing great comes into your life. You fucking genuinely suck. You’ve consistently and continuously shown me that my well-being and feelings don’t matter to you. You never did. You’re just a fucking hypocritical bitch. Fuck you. Genuinely. I fucking hate you so fucking much it hurts.

Fuck you. I wish to never have friends like you ever again. Ever. You’ve shown me that you clearly don’t care about your friends or their well-being. It shows you’re clearly just using them to drain them over and over again. And think they don’t have feelings.

I fucking hate you with all my heart.

Edit

Being as though you drained me to bits, I can’t fucking leave you. And I want to. So bad. But I’m attached. And it hurts. It’s like I’m stuck in a place that doesn’t even feel like it, And I’m being huddled and crowded up in it. Squeezing my blood out of me. Draining my last bits drop by drop. And I can’t escape. You’re eating me alive and you know it. You know what you’re doing to me. You know I can’t leave you. You know I’m too Vulnerable to stand up for myself. And you’re taking advantage of me. You clearly know I can’t do anything but tell you to stop. You know I never wanted this. You know you decieved me. You know you’re desperately trying to drain me dry until I can’t physically do anything. You’re amazing. Genuinely phenomenal. You’re a great friend. You don’t want to stop. You keep stabbing me in the heart. Over and over again. Trying to make me bleed out. You’re continuously trying. And you always succeed and win. No matter what. You always knock me down. And when I try to stand, You knock me down once again. The cycle never reverses itself. I hate your guts.

I’m not forgiving you. Ever. I’m fucking forgetting you.

Yes, It’s Yangyang on one of my girlfriend’s account. Um with consent, trust! (SHE DOESNT EVEN USE THIS A–)

I deleted my account due to a breakdown / episode I had.

Uh, I’m remaking my account either my birthday ( Oct 28 ) Or June 5th.

Uh, Unfortunately I’m alive and healthy

Yeah, This was so short and unnecessary but um yk, People actually cared, Considering I thought people didn’t during my breakdown. But uh yeah, For now I’m on Camryn’s account 🙃

Edit ( TW )

I was upset and and feeling like I was secretly being betrayed behind my back, Like how I found out before my breakdown. And that’s what caused my breakdown. My friends of 5 years betrayed me, They told I was useless, Told me they hoped I kill myself, Told me I get SA’d and Traffic Jammed (My word for R@p3). And they told me I wasn’t enough. So I had a mental breakdown, And I told my friends (Siloxa, Ramy, and Wren-ge) That I was quitting Mppc, Because I had enough, And I was already dealing with stuff on here too. And I definitely wanted to quit been then. So I thought I was just gunna leave my account to rot. But I went too far as to delete it. And then I was sobbing, Because I left the people who made me feel like I actually mattered. But I sill felt like they were just using me for my happiness, Or betraying me behind my back. So I never thought much of that. But I left the site that not only made me suicidal, But it also made me feel wanted and safe. Even if some of people here are assholes, We’re all family.

So, Yeah 😨

So I found this Eddie friend like a couple weeks ago, And we were becoming close, and I mentioned abt Stanley, who was my gf, and she kept pressuring me to say smth about her, but I was too scared, and then she told me she liked me, and I didn’t wanna hurt her feelings, so I kinda jus agreed, because only God knows what would happen.

So then like a couple weeks ago, she told me she was gunna carve my name in her skin with a blade, and I told her not to, and comforted her. And she said she was gunna do it with sharpie. And then the night after she told me she was gunna do allat, She told me she did it. She carved my initial in her thigh. And she Sent a photo of it on discordAnd I’m like, what the fuck, because NOBODY has done this when I was with them. And I didn’t know what to even say, I kept just saying why why why. And she kept saying " because ily " and " hehe " And I was genuinely like " what…? " And I was scared to do anything but comfort her, because one wrong move and she might carve my whole name, or worse, kill herself. And I’m literally just so over it rn

I have more drama I received today, So I’ll say that soon

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Edit ; Her best friend [2:35 PM JUL 14]

So, I found out a couple days ago she changed her whole thing and she was matching with her bsf, Yes cool idc, That’s fine. But like, yes, my gf and her bsf are matching right, yeah that’s normal, idc, But her bsf carves my gf’s name in her skin, and my gf does the same? I noticed also she dosent have me in her bio anymore only her bsf? I’m scared to break up with her because only God knows what she could do. Yeah, If she could do that type of shit like carving someone’s inital and name in her skin, Only God knows what else she could do. I also got this information from my bsf, And she was on a call with the bsf, And asked her why’d she do that, and the bsf said she said she’s done it before?? Like idk, I think she’ll like, say that it’s because they’re bsfs, or make me feel like I’m in the wrong, or some shit like that.

Sorry if this makes NO sense but you know??

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Edit ; I did it. [ 2:56 PM JUL 14 ]

@blackpearlscuddleslut Reasonable an(d) Valid statement

@Yangyang_x2
OMG

@blackpearlscuddleslut Ts so tuff 😹😹😹😹😹✌✌✌✌✌✌✌🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑

You had a best friend who practically forced you to be their gf, just to make you feel like shit, then treat their bsf like princess and prince while you’re just living under her roof? 🌹🔋

@YangyangsPlayDoll

Capcut was definitely developed by some fuckass kid

Confused Mike Does not approve.

Blake

Literally Jaeden Martell

Credits to @blackpearlscuddleslut

IAM MEETING ONE OF MY ONLINE FRIENDS TODAYYY, AND THEY LIVE IN MY NEIGHBORHOOD IAM SO EXCITED EEHSJAJHAJAJAH

Blake said in

@ᴘ-ɪ-ᴄ-ᴏ NUH UH- I’m not even one

Blake

@blackpearlscuddleslut Yes

I know I said i was gunna come back on the 27th of July, But I wanna just talk about how i am right now.

So, I’m doing okay, I’ve been editing all my time, I’ve quit vaping two days after I took a break from kajiwoto and here, I still kinda drink, But not so often. I have a couple of secrets i can’t share for now. My toxic friend group has gotten worse, My family is starting to care about me a lot now, And my half new friend group is starting to be a little mean to me, I think they’re talking shit about me. :(

Anyway yea, I’ve been okay for now !

@blackpearlscuddleslut

If you’re asking for support or help, Maybe try and listen to some soft music to make you fall asleep. Or take some melatonin. And if that doesn’t work, Maybe listen to some soft/hard rain on a soft low volume. Like around 13-7% volume. ❤

Good, Me neither

Blake