I NEED TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST. (tw: major gr00ming and mention of s3lf h@rm)
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One time I met this dude online on discord. Basically we were best friends. (Btw, he was 22 and I was 13 at the time). We always used to call, dm each other, ect. One day, I decided I wanted to see his face. So, I texted him if he wanted us to vc with our cameras on (also, I think he also thought I was a girl so he obviously said yes. When we entered the vc, when he first saw me, he was like; “Wow, you’re so hot! I didn’t know you were a boy, but this makes this better…”. I was kinda confused bc I was a dumb asf kid and I didn’t understand that what he said was straight up ILLEGAL. Then, after that, he started to act really sexual in dms and it made me uncomfortable. This also made me not want to do a lot of vcs with him. Then one day this man literally asked me if I was gay and if I liked older men. I said that I didn’t know. He then sent me these whole essays about how much he would want me to himself and how he wanted to fvck me. I then decided to tell my other online friend (she is like SO NICE) and she told me to confront him about it and ask him to stop. She also told me if he didn’t stop then she’d do something about it. So I then told the guy that I was uncomfortable about his behavior, but he said he didn’t care. He also told me he would give me nitro if I was his bf. Ofc, me being a dumbass kid, I said sure. After that, he started sending me nvdes and sending me VERY inappropriate dms. At that point I didn’t care anymore and went back to my other online friend, where we planned that we would get in a vc with the guy and tell him to stop and call 911 on him if he didn’t stop. When we got into the call, my other friend immediately started to cuss the guy out. The guy sounded so shaken up and immediately started to beg her and me not to call 911 on him and other bullsh!t. My other online friend didn’t care. So basically idk what happened to that dude, but that accident made me very paranoid and have trust issues. That accident also happened when my parents were together and fighting everyday, so that didn’t help. I’m better now but I’m still suffering with s3lf h@rm and the PTSD I got. I’m more mature now and I know to be careful when talking to ppl I meet online. But that accident was the reason why I deleted discord.
thanks for reading. I just needed to get these off my chest.
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This was so brave of you for sharing… 💙
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⋆ ˚｡ ⋆୨𝚂𝚙𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚡୧⋆ ˚｡ ⋆ Thank you. It took me a lot of courage to share this.
