kinda terrified. (tw mentions of school shootings, suicide)

[finn.in.outer.space.]

i genuinely have a fear of going to school sometimes. my school isn’t in the safest area, we’ve gotten a lot of school shooting threats and im terrified. i really am. because yeah, i could switch to online school or skip the days where we get threats but what is life if you live in constant fear. i’ve been suicidal before but i don’t really want to die, i just want the pain to go away and i want to be better. but like i genuinely dread going to school some days because being there drives my anxiety off the wall because im scared of a school shooting and it’s not even an irrational fear anymore. the way people are always shooting at something in america i wouldn’t be surprised if it happened. and my parents are like “you’re just paranoid” but am i? am i really? with the amount of shit thats happened in america since we got back to school am i really just being paranoid or do i have a genuine fear thats based on things that i’ve seen and heard. they threatened to shoot at our band banquet last year. they threatened to bomb my school last year. im just SO horrified of the idea of dying at my school before im ready because i have SO much going for me. my life is finally good. really good. im going to see sevendust and im excited. im happy with myself, im happy in my relationship and i just don’t want that to happen.

[A Former User]

@finneass said in kinda terrified. (tw mentions of school shootings, suicide):

i’ve been suicidal before but i don’t really want to die

oh my god i feel that too.

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and my parents are like “you’re just paranoid”

Your child is not paranoid. They’re terrified of something. Paranoia and Terrified are exactly not the same thing. You think you know if they are or not. They’re terrified of something about their School cause of school Threats. You think that’s just Paranoia? That may be for you, but it’s not for them.

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I really am. because yeah, i could switch to online school or skip the days where we get threats but what is life if you live in constant fear.

People shouldn’t even be throwing out threats Anyway. They know that they can either be scared or have hallucinations about it. That’s fucked up of them to say some shit like this. I am not going to be dealing with people being scared and terrified of People throwing threats around to make them Overthink. That. Now that’s fucking fucked up.

[A Former User]

@linoscatsoonie same

[OY.SSTUFF]

I heard a 17 year old git kidnapped from walking to my school…

[OY.SSTUFF]

And in the summer I walk most of the time…

[zofya]

@finneass I get that, one of the schools in my town gets bomb threats every year and my school got one last year and it’s terrifying. On top of me being scared to go to school in general because of the people and a personal reason, it makes me not want to go to school anymore and I rather go back to doing online school like I had to do half of my freshman year