Why do I always need to prove myself to others?

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

It frustrates me to a level I can’t even put into words.
Why do I have to cry when I’m frustrated?
Why do I have to be like this?
Why am I even here?
I should be out proving myself to someone else, or some bullshit.

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp nobody should prove themself- unless they did something shitty- which u didn’t

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter then why do I have to seem to prove myself, no matter who I meet?
Why do I have to do it to be respected, or even seen?
I’m no different from any other person.

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter So why do they get to be seen at a whim, and I have to work just to be seen?

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp said in Why do I always need to prove myself to others?:

So why do they get to be seen at a whim, and I have to work just to be seen?

I don’t know- maybe they’re jelly cuz you’re a good person and they’re not?

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter but some of them are the best people I’ve ever met.
I don’t understand.
I’m no different.
So why me?

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp …I don’t know.

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter that’s what I’m trying to figure out.
Why do I have to be the one who puts in more work than everyone else, and still get the same results?
Why do I have to be the one who’s exhausted, even if I didn’t do anything wrong?

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter It’s so tiring and mentally and physically draining, and I just can’t keep up sometimes…

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp I’m sorry-

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter don’t be sorry. It’s clearly my fault, according to other people. Everything manages to be my fault.

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp How do you know it’s your fault? Your life consists of toxic people. Usually you can’t change them so just walk away

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter and leave behind my passion of music? Leave behind my chance to go to State Solo/Small Ensemble? State Large Group? All State?

Naturally, you see my dilemma.

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp Oh- Well I don’t know what to do- I’m sorry.

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp That’s like me giving up being a author. it’s not gonna happen

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter exactly. So unfortunately, because of that, I have to have the toxic people in my life, whether I like it or not. And we kind of have to like each other, because we need to work together as a team for our ensembles to be the best they can be.

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter even if one of them is basically a fucking criminal. But that’s a different story for a different day. Or for the DMs if you’re that curious, because I don’t remember if I’ve told you about him.

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp said in Why do I always need to prove myself to others?:

. Or for the DMs if you’re that curious,

u havent told me about him but its good if u dont wanna

[Your Local Shadow Simp]

@Poptart_Yeeter I can lmao. I will out this man literally every chance I get.

[A Former User]

@Your-Local-Ghostface-Simp OOP- go ahead:sob;