I'm resigning.
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This is a lot in little paragraphs because if it wasnโt I would just be ranting about this shit and it would be a BIG post but starting tomorrow or some time this week (or next week) I will be resigning as a moderator. Iโve realized that some members here donโt respect me and want me to leave because Iโm like every other mad mod on here and thatโs taken a really big effect on me. Iโve been really struggling with my self-esteem lately and knowing that most people on here donโt like me or have been talking behind my back really hurts me and I donโt want to be one of those people that end up giving up on life because of it because I almost did a few times back then but I donโt want to be like that anymore. I want to get better but knowing that Iโm just getting hated on and people donโt respect me really brings me down.
Iโm not asking yaโll to fully like me. All I wanted was to do my dream and become a mod to help users here and to help around the community and others donโt take that as a good thing. Iโve done mistakes and Iโve made a few recently but I never intended for so many of you to dislike me or to not want to talk to me and honestly that hurts because Iโm not as evil and disrespectful as some of you guys think I am. Iโve really been trying to focus on school and myself and I feel like none of those are really working out for me and me being on here trying to help users that donโt even like me is hard. Itโs really difficult to do things around here when all I get is hate every time I come online. Iโm not saying you guys are making posts about me or whatever itโs just the fact that when I talk to some of you you think Iโm some horrible person when Iโm really not. I can be if I wanted to but Iโm not.
I wanted to make it at least more than two months (I think its been that long??) of me being a mod but I canโt handle all this stress at once and itโs affecting me more and more everyday.
Iโm sorry.
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โ๐๐ rylie thatโs understandable, and a very respectable decision. I hope people are nicer too you soon. <33 /p
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โ๐๐ rylie ofc ofc <33
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ry every since i met u, u always been kind to me even if i lied u were still nice u helped me get through things and fuck what people say ur a good mod and i respect what ur going through
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โ๐๐ rylie iโm sorry thatโs happening. I know how it feels to have people talk behind your back and I know how it feels To be hated on and to be made out as a horrible person that happened today at school too Iโm sorry that everything is not OK. I will do something, but everybody hates me here as well for no reason, but I can Careless, if people hate me, I guess thatโs their problem not mine
Itโs not your fault people hate you. Itโs theirs clearly they donโt understand anything. I know how that feels tooโฆ
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โ๐๐ rylie We will miss you being a mod
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i may be (semi) new here but iโll miss u
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Weโll miss you, but thanks for your service. Take care!
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โ๐๐ rylie Donโt feel sorry Rylie - I understand that youโve always wanted to help users, to help this site that has been hanging on for so long, and even for me it definitely has its up and downs, and so do some users that decide to put their influence on, whether it is good or bad. Unfortunately it can result in a more discouraging feel, and you certainly deserve so much better. Donโt blame yourself for developing this stress, as I have been dealt with it similarly and I truly understand. Iโm very proud and happy that you have been willing to help this community, to become an amazing mod, and as far as that goes, every bit of that has been a gift to us here
If youโre willing to let go of your position, whether it be those two months or sooner, let me know okayy - your mentality is way more important to consider :) -
Like I always told you, you do whatโs best for you. You are a wonderful person and you did the best you could, thatโs what matters. Your health and mental well-being should be your top priority, not some random forum for a piano website. If you want, you may also take a small break from this website, too. If being here is also a cause of mental issues, take a break. Donโt force yourself to stay, youโll only mess yourself up even more. Iโm speaking from experience here.