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I’ve noticed, I’ve been very self conscious about how I looked.
Not my face, Just my body.

I’ve noticed that I have gained weight. Yes, I am pretty skinny and gaining weight seems good, But It’s not. I’m starting to gain weight in places I don’t want to and with the lack of motivation to work out, I continue to gain weight.

I’ve also noticed for two days I haven’t ate a decent meal other than Mc donalds and whatever snacks we have in the kitchen. I only eat 1-2 Mostly 1 Meal(s) a day. And I am starting to lack the feeling of hunger even if I only ate cereal and a protein bar the day before.

This is a Vent.
I am accepting Feedback.

Do not disrespect.

Love U
@Vent-group

I’m really sorry to hear that. I hope all goes well for you.

@h4lfcr4zy-femboy-edition-but-serious Oh, I’m sorry. I hope you’re stable now.

true

I have adhd and autism so this actually opens my eyes.

@EvelynLuvsYou Yikes, that is so terrible. That dude actually sounds like he could get in trouble for this behavior.

my mother will not tolerate his behavior

Is there a reason she doesnt divorce or call the police…?

Goofbread🍌😸 Aw, that’s unfortunate. You’re doing something really cool for other people, it’s the least they could do is allow you some freedom.

@everyone @Depression-Anxiety-Therapy @Vent @Vent-group @mentally-lost

I am a shoulder you can lean on. I will not tell anyone anything that’s happening to you for Privacy reasons. you will not burden me and I actually enjoy helping you guys. I know that I am actually helping someone overcome the bad times and look up.

https://mpp.community/forum/topic/45502/you-need-to-talk?_=1702391909409

If you have friends or family who needs help, Talk to me through DM.

My new (refurbished) laptop came in today! After ensuring the overall basics worked, I powered the computer down, opened it*, and dusted the two vents because this previously used model had two fans where both fins were covered in dust.

The good news is that in one of the vents, I pulled out a dust chunk which I thought was crazy!

The bad news: Sadly, I did not bother to take pictures. But just imagine there are two vents (rather than one) with the fins covered in a thin layer of dust.

*Please do not attempt this procedure on your own. For those inexperienced, opening the cover into any device poses an electrical shock risk and/or expensive property damage.

I hope you enjoyed #2 on me cleaning vents. It’s almost perplexing by how such little material can be the culprit to achieving maximum performance and longevity with computers.

I didn’t lose my mom’s ring, my dad was mad at my brother not me (he talked to me about it, it was not okay at all, it was quite horrid actually and my father shouldn’t have reacted like that nor should he and my mom be upset at my brother for multitasking literally it wasn’t his fault) and my mom talked to me about the other day with my attitude about the morning. She stopped being so yelly and angry at me cause Im really good at acting like I care about what people have to say (which is hey I’m going into acting. Also, she wonders why I don’t talk to her even though she’s super silly 24/7 lol) but it’s all good now and a lot of stress has been lifted off almost immediately. I’m kinda just upset with the fact that my parents are going back to being the same parents we feared and prayed would go away when I was little… I have really bad PTSD from that so it’s been making me cry today, but it’s gonna be okay hopefully. I wish my parents could control their anger and emotions better because they’re scaring their kids. Personally, I just hope that everything will eventually settle. I have homework to complete today, my rooms a wreck from tearing it up to find my mom’s ring, (which is now confirmed I don’t have it) and now I’m upset cause I have to clean all of that 😬😬😬

@Flandre-Scarlet Of course, I’ll keep looking if you want

My mom makes me terrified. I had to shut up and let her yell at me, and do exactly what she told of me, and she kept on coming back into the kitchen to scream at me and make her point seem “more valid” when it just made her seem like a fucking asshole.

I love my dad but he didn’t do shit. He didn’t do shit to help me in that situation…

@Karol Nice! :)

Cursed Cucumber DUDE MY MOM SUCKS SOMETIMES (most of the time)

@Hexers-Angel So true. I think being put through that kind of treatment from others makes that person want to make sure nobody goes through the same.

Everything that was bad filled my head
I looked at my pages of what you all said
My body trembled before it went limp, I felt dead
Nah I felt great, I felt chill I felt calm
I’m not gonna go crying to my fucking mom
Y’all would like that I know cause you love that what you said
Made me scared, made me cry, made me feel dead
I can’t associate myself with another fuckin person
Everyone seems to treat me fuckin absurd and
I’m tired of feelin like another fuckin burden
I can feel it, my blood inside burnin
I don’t wanna get hurt again, I’m startin again, close these curtains the light hurts and I’m tired of lookin
I wanna fuckin collapse, everything you say makes me wanna relapse, a habit of misery perhaps, sorry I’m not better at making choices

i’ve been off my anti-anxiety meds for a month, if you want to be close to me/talk to me, im gonna be panicky for the next 2-3 ish weeks until my meds fully kick back in. it comes with panic disorder. i panic over little irrational things and i can’t help it.

number 2, when things happen, i need space to heal from said things. whether that be losing people, lost friendships/relationships, giving me space is the best option if i seem to be pissed off with you. i don’t hate you, i just need space to not fucking talk to you at that moment, thats how i get over things. if i feel like talking to you again, i will, if i break off the attachment and i dont feel like it, i won’t. it’s that simple.

sometimes i get a little clingy and i double text idk if people care about that but yeah. that just means i care about you and enjoy talking to you…

but im sick of feeling like i have to talk to someone when i need space or im in the wrong. if you trigger a panic attack, im likely gonna distance myself like my psychiatrist tells me to do. sorry lol.

thats all lol.