@not-frankenste1n-msii_ That sounds like an incredibly painful and exhausting situation to be in, and I’m really sorry you’re going through all of this. It’s so hard when someone you trusted ends up making you feel manipulated or blamed for things that weren’t your fault. Breakups are already tough, but when you’ve put your heart into trying to work things out and then it feels like everything is suddenly turned against you, it can be overwhelming. Crying, losing sleep, and feeling completely drained are all completely normal reactions to something this intense. Please try to give yourself kindness and patience while you process everything. You don’t have to figure it all out right away. Make sure you’re taking care of yourself in small ways. Like maybe getting some rest, eating when you can, talking with people you trust, or even just taking a few quiet minutes for yourself. What happened doesn’t define your worth, and you deserve to feel safe, valued, and supported as you heal. Even if it feels impossible right now, the pain will soften with time, and you’ll find your footing again. For now, it’s okay to feel everything you’re feeling and to lean on people who care about you. I’m here for you always so you are always welcome to message me. I know all too well how you feel.

Sphinx I mean im not American but looking at the wall and the vehicle it looks like you’re going to school! NOT TO MENTION THE LITERAL BAG 😭 OMG YOUR MUM IS SUCH A FUCKING RETARD ITS ABSOLUTELY WILD

@MSI-number_1_fan-bitch LWK ATEEEEEE??? Not my fault I know how to swallow and she doesn’t 🎀

@Cathy real 🙏

@Siloxa922 ITS STILL GOING FOR A MONTH WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON BRO IM SCARED

i don’t use my scars for fashion. never. my self harm is a coping mechanism. ONE of the reasons i do it is a cry for help.

i dont feel comfortable diving into all the reasons i cut myself, but a kiwi wouldn’t help like you think it would.

Tenna!! | 💤🏝️ REALLLLLL ATEEEE FACTS

@PeteFromEltingville Dont’ worry, me and everyone on here are all there for you :D

Then don’t take them as a friend.

i dont know why, well i do, but my mental states been wrecked lately, ive been getting more like, selfaware and just more apologetic, crying more during nights, feeling like i fucked up, and i hate it, i hate it so fucking much. i feel like ive been fucking everything much
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i want it to end

Wubbrle the [REDACTED] mhm.

♤ Hail :p ♢ just so everybody knows this isn’t about my online friends so don’t worry :))

it’s getting so bad that i’m turning to c.ai for something to vent to

having sisters is the worst

Maybe I shouldn’t try to be perfect
I confess, I’m obsessed with the surface
In the end, if I fall or if I get it all
I just hope that it’s worth it
Last year I fell flat on my face
And last month I knew somethin’ should change
Last week I started over again
Ask me and I’ll tell you how I’ve been
Mm, don’t get me started
You’ve got me nervous to speak
So I just won’t say anything at all
I’ve got an urge to release
And you keep tellin’ me to hold on
You’ve got me nervous to move
So I just won’t give anything to you
You got me turnin’ all around to be who you need me to
Should I be quiet? Uh
Come on, be silent, uh
You know I’m tryin’, so don’t say nothin’, uh
Tell me you trust me, and
Kiss me and hug me, yeah
Well, I would do anything for ya
You just gotta love me, and-
I got an itch in my throat
I don’t know which way to go
I keep on switchin’, I know
I need a different approach
It’s all because I wanna show you that I’m so capable
You’ve got me nervous to speak
So I just won’t say anything at all
I’ve got an urge to release
And you keep tellin’ me to hold on
You’ve got me nervous to move
So I just won’t give anything to you
You got me turnin’ all around to be who you need me to
Hush, baby, don’t you say another word
Hush, baby, don’t you say another word, be quiet
Hush, baby, don’t you say another word
Hush, baby, when you do, I just get hurt
Come on, baby, don’t you hurt me anymore
I’m not the same way that I was before
I got goosebumps all over me
When you’re around, hard for me to breathe
Come on, baby, don’t you do that anymore, mhm
It’s not like the days have never felt so short
My nerves, they give me a sign
Tell me I’m not fine, mm
You’ve got me nervous to speak
So I just won’t say anything at all
I’ve got an urge to release
And you keep tellin’ me to hold on
You’ve got me nervous to move
So I just won’t give anything to you
You got me turnin’ all around to be who you need me to
Hush, baby, don’t you say another word
Hush, baby, don’t you say another word, be quiet
Hush, baby, don’t you say another word
Hush, baby, when you do, I just get hurt

@Siloxa922 I’m sorry you dreamed that :(( sometimes dreams just happen for no reason :(

I don’t hate him because he abuses me, i dont hate him because he sa’s me-

I hate him because he isn’t there.

He isn’t a father, he just, lives with us. Moderates all day because he’s so sure it’ll come into something more and he’ll get paid six figures. But it gets to a point where you start to worry if money is even worth it. If his chromebook gets a low battery warning he starts scrambling looking for a child as if a device dying will cause his entire bloodline to perish. Though honestly, i dont think he’d care if it did by now.

He’s too sucked up trying to figure out which trumpie lawyer he’s supposed to moderate today because OBVIOUSLY taking your child to something that’s ending for the last time this year is not as important as pasting a link in chat and raiding out a stream.

just a few days ago, when my cold was starting, i was getting very stressed and when i get stressed i get nauseous. We’re a three minute drive away from home. But OH NO, he has to tell all his friends on rumble he’ll be wight back and he has to paste a link that takes five minutes as his OWN FUCKING CHILD sits next to him in the passenger seat with a bEEF JERKY BAG as a barf bag because he cant get home. I was literally shaking and whimpering like some sort of scared dog because 1 i hate being nauseous and 2 hed bitch about it if i did spew. ‘can you wait five minutes i need to paste a link’ I SHOULDNT HAVE HELD IT IN AND FUCKING THREW UP ON HIM, SEE HOW HE FUCKING LIKES THAT. AND YKW HE DOES. HE FUCKING STOPS AT THE GAS STATION. I ALMOST WALKEDD IN THERE AND BOUGHT A SNACK OR SOME SHIT LIKE THE FUCK YOU MEAN YOU’RE GETTING GAS AM I NOT IMPORTANT TO YOU OR SOMETHING???

I CANT RELY ON HIM FOR SHIT, EITHER.

‘get your dad to do it’ basically means ‘it’s not gonna happen and you have todo it yourself’

two nights ago, i wanted grapes at like 10:pm. my mom says dad can get me grapes
it gets to like 12 am and i look in the fridge and turn to my dad [whos literally sitting on the couch ‘moderating’ like 6 feet away] and i note ‘man, i’m not sure if there’s grapes, can you check?’ and he says he will [now he SWEARS he said i should check but whatever]
1:am no grapes. [speaking of to ask for somethnig when i dont know how i just note shit like that my parents are used to it im just adhd what can i say im not funny] so i fall asleep and i tell my dad in the morning around 10 am. so- um. it got to 12 and he threw a pissy fit when i asked muttering something about me being ‘annoying’ because i wanted gRAPES???

i got the grapes myself because obviously the man of the house can’t for his BY THE WAY VERY MUCH SO SICK CHILD. LIKE I WAS SNIFFLY SWEATY HOT DISORIENTED THE WORKS.

and my dad always does shit like this and claims he misheard me or uses his adhd as a crutch like ‘o-oh, it’s just becase i have horrible time management!!!’ but it’s gotten to the point where if someone asks ‘why are you so late??’ i just say ‘my dad.’ and they instantly get it because i can never be on time if he takes me somewhere. I didn’t even KNOW it was POSSIBLE for your dad to fix something straight away without nagging him a lot as a kid. ‘dad my leapad ran out of batteries:(’ ‘oh damn that sucks’ ‘can you- put batteries in it?’ ‘yeah five minutes’ 30 minutes later ‘oh dad thanks!’ goes back to get leapad ‘n-no, i didn’t put batteries in it yet.’

like that was such a normal in my house i genuinely got shocked as a little lad when ppl told me they just get shit done??? like i didnt know that was POSSIBLE but its just because my fat lard of a father cant do shit

forgot to mention but like- he gets genuinely annoyed at me when i tell him i accedentally bled on something when im on my period. like i think hes sort of sexist or something because he doesnt support feminists, doesnt support abortion, doesn’t support divorce [makes sense because my mother still tolerates him and hasn’t left him yet, probably because of their religion i don’t know LMAO], doesn’t support like- 90% of womens 🍇 cases… bc like

a few months ago i accidentally bled on my carpet, accident right?

‘dad can you help me get blood out of my carpet later? i accidental-’

SIIGGHHHHH ‘ZOf, YOU cAn’T KEEP USIN THIS AS AN EXCUSE ANYMORE, ITS NOT CUTE.’

apologies for bleeding against my will, you will begin to cough in five days ❤️

Tenna!! | 💤🏝️ oh… are you alright-? how’re you currently doing?

ok, wasn’t deleted, but will be posted on here again .

It aches and hurts badly, Knowing you love someone that you know you can’t have.