@Liuyxngz yeah sometimes i just pretend to be happy when im actually either annoyed or mad, or mostly sad

@siloxa922 Hey, I’m here for you. E
Even if you have people who hate you, avoid them unless they want a second chance. Try keeping your friends with you as long as you can. <3

@Liuyxngz dont

Blake mhmm.

-_Rai_- Oop- I love Happy Face. Relatable

So much I wanna tell you but you need to go away!
I love you with my whole heart but it aches it fucking ACHES-
Step back and give me space or god knows what the fuck I’ll say…-
This shit gets old so fast but I go through it every day…!

Why does it hurt to love you? I don’t know…
Why does it hurt to love you? I-I-I-I don’t know…
Why does it hurt to love you? I don’t know…
Why does it hurt to love you? I-I-I-I don’t know…

Why does it hurt to love you? Go away-
Why does it hurt to love you? Go-Go-Go away.
Why does it hurt to love you? Go away-
Why does it hurt to love you? I mean it, go away.

Keep falling into circles I’ll cut off my fucking head
I can’t remember anything of what I must have said
If pain is beauty what the fuck does this shit mean instead?
I feel two thousand feelings and a thousand arе regret
If this shit is so wrong then why thе fuck can I not stop?
Why am I wired to keep making everything my fault?
I try to be a good girl but that isn’t in the cards
I’ll self destruct blow up our life leave everything in shards!

Keep falling into circles I’ll cut off my fucking head
I can’t remember anything of what I must have said
If pain is beauty what the fuck does this shit mean instead?
I feel two thousand feelings and a thousand are regret

I’m living in delusions and that’s not a way to live!
Keep asking me for more when I have nothing left to give!
If I keep going now then I’m just bound to fall apart!
Just useless dreams and tears and forever broken hearts
The pressure gets to me too much, I always fucking care!
If you were in my shoes then you’d pull out your fucking hair!
Whenever I see you I have so much I wanna share
But I’ll sit here all bottled up completely unaware

So much I wanna tell you but you need to go away!
I love you with my whole heart but it aches it fucking aches!
Step back and give me space or god knows what the fuck I’ll say!
This shit gets old so fast but I go through it every day!

So much I wanna tell you but you need to go away!
I love you with my whole heart but it aches it fucking aches!
Step back and give me space or god knows what the fuck I’ll say!
This shit gets old so fast but I go through it every day!

@h3rs You’re WAYYYYYYYYYY off from toxicity

@I_m_felix
Hey, So like. I’m so fucking sorry they did that to you. You don’t deserve that shit. Not even close. Anyone who can say something that cruel isn’t a real friend, They’re just a piece of shit hiding behind the word ‘friend.’ You’ve got such a good heart, and you don’t owe those assholes anything. If they can’t treat you with the bare minimum of respect, Then fuck them. You’re so much better off without people like that dragging you down. I’m always here for you, no matter what, And it’ll stay like that. Forever and ever. I Hope you feel better soon. 💚

So… As a kid, after my sister was born when I was ten, the attention quickly shifted to her.

So as a kid I never really got attention. Except for negative attention.

Even when I tried to make my mom proud, she never was. But instead disliked my talents and called me an attention seeker whenever I explain my interests to people.

So now that I ran away from her and I’m in a better place, asking for attention in a positive and healthy way is hard.

I usually revert back to my, “Bothering people for attention then getting mad when they get mad (also for attention” tactic. I’ve been told by my stepmom that I don’t need to do this anymore for attention and all I need to do is ask.

But it’s hard. That and my bio mom sucks. She is petty, emotionally abusive, and had me develop depression, anxiety, and childhood trauma but refused to take me to a therapist to get diagnosed because “God didn’t make me that way” or “Generational trauma stops with you”
My bio dad has ADD and I have CLEAR SIGNS of ADHD but she didn’t want me to go to the doctor because “I am just lazy… Or… I make excuses” and I need to pray harder

Right now I feel like crying… I want to kill myself because I don’t feel like I deserve anything. I feel like a stupid spoiler brat. I feel like everyone hates me but doesn’t tell me. My bio mom already told me “I want nothing to do with you” she hates me. She won’t let me talk to my 6 year old sister. I’m going to miss so many birthdays… I hate me.

Why is she even sending me this shit when SHE WAS THE ONE TO TAKE ME OUT OF SCHOOL AND THEN STRESS ABOUT ME GETTING BACK INTO SCHOOL

BUTTT DIDN’T TRY AND HELP US BY SENDING THIS SHIT IN THE FIRST PLACE?? I STILL DON’T HAVE MY ID OR SSN?? CAUSE SHE WON’T SEND IT.

I HAD TO GET MY OWN COPY OF MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE CAUSE AT FIRST SHE WOULDN’T SEND IT… SHE MADE IT HARD FOR NO GODDAMN REASON.

“Stay away from me. But … Stay with me.”

That depression is like murdering someone, but there were cameras recording it. No matter how well you try to hide it, there’s always proof of pain and suffering

I sound edgy fight me

@Liuyxngz Yo ive been throwing up too 2 days ago, kinda coincidence your throwing up too

Anyway thats not what i was gonna say, your mom definitely sounds like a messed up peace of shit to me, shes such a bad mom wtf, I dont think thats even allowed, you should rest, not do stuff.

I think this sums it up: Every child deserves parents, but not all parents deserve children.

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Everything is eating me alive, And I can’t find a way too escape, Because I’ll be blood and bones later on. And fuck, it feels like no one gives a shit. Like I could disappear and people would just fucking move on, like I was never even here. I’m drowning in my own head, stuck replaying the same damn pain on loop, over and over until I can’t tell the difference between yesterday, today, or whatever the hell everyday supposed to be. I just want it to stop. I just want to feel something real again, or at least not feel like I’m falling apart piece by fucking piece. But life doesn’t wait, and it sure as hell doesn’t give a fuck. It just keeps kicking until there’s nothing left but a mess that I’m stuck dragging around.

And honestly? I don’t know how much more of this shit I can take.

I literally don’t. I’ve been trying to distance myself from everything, But it doesn’t help. I’ve even tried doing what I’ve been trying to do for years, But I really just don’t feel like myself and I don’t know why. I’ve been through way too much, And I feel myself slipping away from everything. I actually don’t feel like myself. I really don’t. And I don’t know what to do. I just wanna be happy, That’s all. And people in hell want ice water. But people just can’t get what they want. Because life isn’t fair. And it’ll never be fair. It’s fucking exhausting. I’m tired of pretending, tired of smiling through shit I don’t feel, tired of dragging myself through every goddamn day like it’s some kind of test I never signed up for. Everything feels fake. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I try, I fucking try so hard, but it’s never enough.

It’s all bullshit. And I’m actually so fucking done.

Sphinx uhm… How do I say this in the nicest way possible.
Your mother is psychotic.
She needs help. There is no reason at all for her to act like that. Soon to come she’s going to realize why you don’t like her and why you left in the first place and once she realizes that she’s going to hate her life. I’ve had to deal with this with my mom too a few years back. I am sorry you have to deal with this. This isn’t okay at all. All I can really say is I’m glad your out of there and with a loving parent. I mean yeah, I’m sure your mom loves you because your her daughter but she is downright psychotic and needs some type of help.

𖤐𝐸𝓂𝒾𝓁𝓎 𝑀𝑒𝓇𝓇𝒾𝓂𝒶𝒸𝓀𖤐 No

sorrows nope–nothing super serious, it was just really weird- like ma’am, you’re like…67. I’m 16- no thank you-

What’s with the picture? It looks nice.