why am i so paranoid these nights

why can i never sleep

why can i never be able to sleep without the paranoia

i dont want another nightmare

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@Koda fr these fuckers legit need disciplined 😔

wow

somnium i’m still crying

@Blanket-Child aren’t we all one breath away from death already…

tip to self: never have an extroverted mother, i swear to god she’s gonna kill me one day for not doing what MOMMY SAYS OOHHH

Wubbrle the [REDACTED] Honestly I might start thinking she does have a fucking foot fetish. Also YEAH why is it the mothers that turn into assholes??

@x-IllIIlIllIlIIlIll-x said in Vent art:

@Blanket-Child ah

Yuh yuh

@fluffypawz Zank you!! ^^

@hospitalizesmallchildren EXACTLY!!!

Tenna!! | 🟡🐙 Yes indeed EYY!!

Lashed out at so many of my friends, mental state dropping due to anger.

I’m going to lose the one person that was always there for me, but I’ll crawl back, and we’d probably not be the same.

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What have they done to me.

uhm tbh idk where to start. These past weeks have been living hell for me and if you had to give me a choice to go through these past weeks again or step on glass, i would step on the glass.

Anyways, my parents are just… idk anymore. Everytime i try to communicate w/ them, they end up either not listen, getting mad, start yelling at me, or send me to my room ig. And i told them how they never try to talk to me and how it hurts when they js call me names and yell instead of talking like normal but they said something along the lines of, ‘‘we can do whatever we want, you mean nothing bc ur just a minor/kid and u dont do anything to contribute to this house’’ which i physically cant do anything to help the house bc the state where i live in u have to be 17 to get a job and permit/license soooo…

And i just dont know what to do. they never believe me when i say anything and theyre never proud of me.

Also, i just feel invisible sometimes. like a ghost trapped in the wrong body, yknow…?

also, theres another part but idk if i can say it bc idk if its against the rules (btw cant find the rules) but if u wanna know u can dm me ig.

@Blanket-Child im sorry pooks :< im here for u tho!!! if no one chooses u as their first choice, i will dw,. ^^

@Wumutit I can hunt them down for you and make their murder look like an accident. Also, you can talk to me if you need to

@Blanket-Child awwhh ty<33

So since I’m not under the constant stress of my mom, Ive been noticing more things about myself and my mental health and things I need to seek a therapist for (Venting and diagnosing)

I have been concerned about me possibly having Autism, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD and Dissociation (A symptom of anxiety)

And after talking to a Autistic friend (who’s also very smart btw) He mentioned to me RSD or Rejection Sensitivity disorder… This is a new one and with my research I really feel I resonate with the symptoms of RSD…

I hope my dad and step mom can get me into therapy so I can hopefully be diagnosed and treated and lean how to cope with the mental trauma, Emotional regulation, and just… The meltdowns and Anxiety…

I don’t care what my family has to say about
“just turn to God”
“You just wanna be diagnosed with everything 😒”
“You always want the worse diagnosis”
"You aren’t autistic because my niece… "
"You don’t seem autistic to me! "
“Youre just childish / it’s just hormones”
“God didn’t make you this way”

And so on.
I am looking out for me…
If nobody understands me then so be it… But if they don’t want to help me solve the problem and instead be the problem, then maybe they shouldn’t give me advice at all.

Sphinx my dad is trying to get me out of the house and he’s planning on taking my mum to court

Hood I think i was just overthinking

Soverign Well really, I haven’t been throwing up as much as I did, infact, that bit’s ended, but I keep having the shits and it’s getting on my nerves with the stomachaches and having to worrying my friend when going AFK.