uhm tbh idk where to start. These past weeks have been living hell for me and if you had to give me a choice to go through these past weeks again or step on glass, i would step on the glass.

Anyways, my parents are just… idk anymore. Everytime i try to communicate w/ them, they end up either not listen, getting mad, start yelling at me, or send me to my room ig. And i told them how they never try to talk to me and how it hurts when they js call me names and yell instead of talking like normal but they said something along the lines of, ‘‘we can do whatever we want, you mean nothing bc ur just a minor/kid and u dont do anything to contribute to this house’’ which i physically cant do anything to help the house bc the state where i live in u have to be 17 to get a job and permit/license soooo…

And i just dont know what to do. they never believe me when i say anything and theyre never proud of me.

Also, i just feel invisible sometimes. like a ghost trapped in the wrong body, yknow…?

also, theres another part but idk if i can say it bc idk if its against the rules (btw cant find the rules) but if u wanna know u can dm me ig.

@Blanket-Child im sorry pooks :< im here for u tho!!! if no one chooses u as their first choice, i will dw,. ^^

@Wumutit I can hunt them down for you and make their murder look like an accident. Also, you can talk to me if you need to

@Blanket-Child awwhh ty<33

So since I’m not under the constant stress of my mom, Ive been noticing more things about myself and my mental health and things I need to seek a therapist for (Venting and diagnosing)

I have been concerned about me possibly having Autism, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD and Dissociation (A symptom of anxiety)

And after talking to a Autistic friend (who’s also very smart btw) He mentioned to me RSD or Rejection Sensitivity disorder… This is a new one and with my research I really feel I resonate with the symptoms of RSD…

I hope my dad and step mom can get me into therapy so I can hopefully be diagnosed and treated and lean how to cope with the mental trauma, Emotional regulation, and just… The meltdowns and Anxiety…

I don’t care what my family has to say about
“just turn to God”
“You just wanna be diagnosed with everything 😒”
“You always want the worse diagnosis”
"You aren’t autistic because my niece… "
"You don’t seem autistic to me! "
“Youre just childish / it’s just hormones”
“God didn’t make you this way”

And so on.
I am looking out for me…
If nobody understands me then so be it… But if they don’t want to help me solve the problem and instead be the problem, then maybe they shouldn’t give me advice at all.

Sphinx my dad is trying to get me out of the house and he’s planning on taking my mum to court

Hood I think i was just overthinking

Soverign Well really, I haven’t been throwing up as much as I did, infact, that bit’s ended, but I keep having the shits and it’s getting on my nerves with the stomachaches and having to worrying my friend when going AFK.

Did you eat something bad? Possible you got food poisoning or a stomach bug if that’s been going around.

I hope you feel better soon! ❤️

huh

Hood

I understand that, but in some cases, people just want to be heard. I appreciate the thought behind it.

@Pho You’re welcome!

its gotten way worse, i cant even be bothered to use grammar like i usually do.

im not even thinking about venting anymore, well, not to my friends- at all. like i keep saying to myself and everyone, i always think my vents are invalid, and i just, i dont want them to be overthinking about me, i say im fine, but im not, im genuinely, i cant think straight, i always think theyre annoyed at me, based off the way they speak.

everytime i think about this, or venting in general, i always think “youre being repetitive with this shit, shut the fuck up.” and just decide to say “oh no im fine dw im js yk like this alot lol”,

i cant actually js keep going like thsi they will notice either way anywyas, i dont want them to notice but at the same time i do. idk i just find comfort in venting on here more than actually to anyone else, lol.

I’m not what I want to see
Juggling insecurities
Locked inside my cage of shit
No I don’t want to be clean
I don’t want to be seen
I’m just waiting for someone to put me to sleep
Like I’m
I live such a lonely life
I don’t like to go outside
Please, please fucking leave me be
No, I don’t want dirty hands
I don’t want to be mean
But I’m sick of meeting new people on my scene
Like I’m aggravated, motivated, never gonna graduate
I’m stimulated, overstated, I just wanna get sedated
On the contrary, I just wanna meet a nice girl
Messy, not too sketchy, keep me tied up in the right world
Segregated, situated, hangin’ on sophisticated
Liberated, nauseated, I just want more medication
Individuality and blue light gives me headaches
Not changing for the better, I’m just changing clothes on weekends
Weather’s nice outside
I think I’ll close the window blinds, yeah
Sleep through my alarm
So that I skip the sunny part, uh
I’m not one to take a risk
I’ll suck your blood, no anemics
Garlic or sticks, I’m vampiric
I just don’t like the Sun

(yes this is in the right category)

Sphinx it’s almost the same as daydreaming except it’s involuntary… It’s a response to trauma, stress, or super low/depressive moments/Episodes

I’ve been so stressed out lately that I’m actually starting to feel sick. My mom relies on the food stamps program to get by, and now that it’s gone, my mom is spending money on food rather than bills. Our landlord (I’ll call 'em Mr. C) is now threatening to kick my mom and our family out of the house if she doesn’t pay the bills on time. (She can’t till the next paycheck which is the 29th of this month)

We have been homeless before, but it was before my siblings were born or we had seven dogs to take care of. I feel pretty useless in this situation, because I want to make money, but the only job nearby is McDonald’s and I have already worked there enough to know it stresses me out.

Now I want to start art commissions, but I don’t have a credit card to get PayPal. So, I’m kind of just stuck.

When you were forced to believe mental insanity clinics were horrible punishments for insane people all your life, you finally open up enough to your mother about your actual mental state and she threatens to send me to a clinic for my ‘own good.’ I didn’t want to be suicidal. alright? I didn’t fucking want to. I’m scared she said she wouldn’t visit me so i’d be alone. she said she’s ‘scared’ of me. I’m scared. not her. me. I’m like- shaking right now idk why but I am she’s ‘threatening’ to get me therapy. Why is mental help a fucking punishment in her eyes

I can somehow relate to this, but instead it’s just whenever I’m with irl friends, apparently no one can hear me and I’m not there. Honestly I just stopped talking to them, but they too have noticed when I no longer conversated with them as usual and then they turn around and actually wanna talk to me for once, which I just gave them the same treatment and hung out with different friends.

Yes, people can be talkative, but I want you to make sure you’re on a one-on-one convo with your besties to make sure they’re listening (not forcing you to do so.) If they seem to not respond, you should call them when they don’t seem very into the conversation. You may feel like this about yourself when someone doesn’t make eye contact or talk less than you whenever you and whoever are talking about whatever. I can promise you aren’t annoying in general, those are just opinions getting to your head.

Soverign I love you (platonically) bro
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Let me know if you want comfort. - Raven

[INACTIVE] Toast I- i’m sorry. I’m not very good at consoling- But if you need someone to vent to, dm me. even if I can’t respond to dms atm I can still listen

h4lfie oh, I’m sorry for your loss :(