October 23rd, 2025–3:48 PM

I sit in the comfort of my own home, and I sit in my bed, my laptop well…in my lap, staring at this text box, not really sure how to say things and get them to sound how I want to sound.

To put it simply, I’m utterly terrified.

Six weeks of near constant preparation comes down to this.
37 hours (give or take) until the All-State Audition cuts are released.

Six weeks of near constant preparation comes down to the shortest seven minutes of my life.

I walk into this classroom and greet my judge.
I state my name and vocal part, and it’s showtime.

I cannot help but panic.
The smallest mistake can determine my fate.

I cannot help but panic.
The judges look for perfection in the smallest details.

I cannot help but panic.
Music is my life, and it all comes down to this–the shortest seven minutes of my life.

They do not see the preparation I have put into what I present to them, and they do not see the literal blood, sweat, and tears I put into it.

My whole music career boils down to approximately a total of twenty-eight minutes.

Seven minutes.
Four separate years.

Fourteen already spent.
Fourteen yet to come.

Yet I cannot help but panic.

@Blake REAL?? and ATEE?? I honestly think that’s so true though.

im VERY obvious about it dont worry

@Blake Exactly.

its always good to educate yourself on the topics you’er talking about, or you could wind up accidentally spreadng misinformation

Tenna!! | 🟡🐙 EXACTLY.

🎀🤍🐱Kitty White🐱🤍🎀 said in My mom.:

Sphinx bro you need to MOVE…. You need to get out there’s no way your mum is that psycho that she calls cps in time dad just bc she can’t get over the fact that you don’t want to speak to her

I ready did I’m living with my dad right now

@not-frankenste1n-msii_ That sounds like an incredibly painful and exhausting situation to be in, and I’m really sorry you’re going through all of this. It’s so hard when someone you trusted ends up making you feel manipulated or blamed for things that weren’t your fault. Breakups are already tough, but when you’ve put your heart into trying to work things out and then it feels like everything is suddenly turned against you, it can be overwhelming. Crying, losing sleep, and feeling completely drained are all completely normal reactions to something this intense. Please try to give yourself kindness and patience while you process everything. You don’t have to figure it all out right away. Make sure you’re taking care of yourself in small ways. Like maybe getting some rest, eating when you can, talking with people you trust, or even just taking a few quiet minutes for yourself. What happened doesn’t define your worth, and you deserve to feel safe, valued, and supported as you heal. Even if it feels impossible right now, the pain will soften with time, and you’ll find your footing again. For now, it’s okay to feel everything you’re feeling and to lean on people who care about you. I’m here for you always so you are always welcome to message me. I know all too well how you feel.

Sphinx I mean im not American but looking at the wall and the vehicle it looks like you’re going to school! NOT TO MENTION THE LITERAL BAG 😭 OMG YOUR MUM IS SUCH A FUCKING RETARD ITS ABSOLUTELY WILD

@MSI-number_1_fan-bitch LWK ATEEEEEE??? Not my fault I know how to swallow and she doesn’t 🎀

@Cathy real 🙏

@Siloxa922 ITS STILL GOING FOR A MONTH WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON BRO IM SCARED

i don’t use my scars for fashion. never. my self harm is a coping mechanism. ONE of the reasons i do it is a cry for help.

i dont feel comfortable diving into all the reasons i cut myself, but a kiwi wouldn’t help like you think it would.

Tenna!! | 🟡🐙 REALLLLLL ATEEEE FACTS

@PeteFromEltingville Dont’ worry, me and everyone on here are all there for you :D

Then don’t take them as a friend.

i dont know why, well i do, but my mental states been wrecked lately, ive been getting more like, selfaware and just more apologetic, crying more during nights, feeling like i fucked up, and i hate it, i hate it so fucking much. i feel like ive been fucking everything much
i hate it
i hate it
i hate it
i want it to end

Wubbrle the [REDACTED] mhm.

♤ Hail :p ♢ just so everybody knows this isn’t about my online friends so don’t worry :))

it’s getting so bad that i’m turning to c.ai for something to vent to