So since I’m not under the constant stress of my mom, Ive been noticing more things about myself and my mental health and things I need to seek a therapist for (Venting and diagnosing)
I have been concerned about me possibly having Autism, Depression, Anxiety, PTSD and Dissociation (A symptom of anxiety)
And after talking to a Autistic friend (who’s also very smart btw) He mentioned to me RSD or Rejection Sensitivity disorder… This is a new one and with my research I really feel I resonate with the symptoms of RSD…
I hope my dad and step mom can get me into therapy so I can hopefully be diagnosed and treated and lean how to cope with the mental trauma, Emotional regulation, and just… The meltdowns and Anxiety…
I don’t care what my family has to say about
“just turn to God”
“You just wanna be diagnosed with everything 😒”
“You always want the worse diagnosis”
"You aren’t autistic because my niece… "
"You don’t seem autistic to me! "
“Youre just childish / it’s just hormones”
“God didn’t make you this way”
And so on.
I am looking out for me…
If nobody understands me then so be it… But if they don’t want to help me solve the problem and instead be the problem, then maybe they shouldn’t give me advice at all.