Body dysmorphia kicks ass.
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So, to put it bluntly, I’m a slightly chubbier girl, and I’ve got a large chest.
(unfortunately. That’s where this is heading too…)I usually don’t mind, but I’ve got a lot of performances coming up where I have to either move around a lot or do a lot of dancing/jumping. I’ve also noticed that because of my…size, I have a lot of back pain, and pain going up/down stairs/pain in general. I’ve tried sports bras (like the compression ones), but those only work so much. As someone who has a lot of LGBTQ+ friends and as someone who is LGBTQ+, I know that you are not supposed to bind with those elastic bandages, but it was only for a minute. Not even. I wanted to cry because it felt nice. It was tighter and more supportive than a sports bra, and I was still able to breathe. Except the shitty part is, is I can’t get a binder (not even from someone with supportive parents), because my mom will get mad and be like ‘oh you don’t need one, that’s what your sports bras are for,’ and no matter how hard I would try to tell her, I know it would always end up in some stupid-ass argument, and she’d probably say something about how my gay friends are being a “bad influence” on me and that I just want to be like them because it’s “cool.”No. The problem is:
I hate my arms. They’re so fatty but skinny.
I hate my hands. My nails look gross, and my fingers are short and ugly.
I hate my legs. They’re so thick. The only thing they look good in is thigh-highs and leggings because they hid their true form.
I hate my stomach. I want a flat stomach like all those pretty girls at school. Why can’t I look like them?
I hate my face. My skin is scarred from picking at it, and it’s textured and ugly. If I could afford skincare to look nice and pretty, I would get it.
I hate my chest. After being told my ‘chesticles’ were out for wearing a cute zipper top that was lower cut, especially.
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Oh, and I’m like super pissed off right now because (note that I’m a singer for what I’m about to say) I’m sick, and I can’t. Fucking. BREATHE. LIKE AT ALL. And I’m pretty sure my Devil’s Waterfall is coming shortly, so I’m super like, temperamental, and I’m also pissed because I have tried using a steam inhaler, and a nebulizer, and I can’t find my Vicks VapoRub Stick (It’s like a smelling stick that smells like really concentrated Vicks, and it clears out the sinuses super fast. AND I CAN’T FIND IT. WHAT THE HELL-)"𝐼 𝓈𝓅𝑒𝓃𝓉 𝓈𝑜 𝓁𝑜𝓃𝑔 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓇𝓀𝓃𝑒𝓈𝓈, 𝐼'𝒹 𝒶𝓁𝓂𝑜𝓈𝓉 𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑔𝑜𝓉𝓉𝑒𝓃 𝒽𝑜𝓌 𝒷𝑒𝒶𝓊𝓉𝒾𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓂𝑜𝑜𝓃𝓁𝒾𝑔𝒽𝓉 𝒾𝓈."
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@just-a-fkn-reaper-3-0 u is bootiful no matter what girl U-U
uwu cutely snaps ur neck
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@just-a-fkn-reaper-3-0 Girl I’m the fattest 13 yr old in my class- (im built like a fucking ddiscord mod) I know I can’t do anything hell, I can’t even do anything to cheer you up but just know, I’m here for you. :)
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kitkatgirlie Girlie, I appreciate it, but like, body dysmorphia says no.
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@Winnie-the-GIANT-ENEMY-SPIDER said in Body dysmorphia kicks ass.:
(im built like a fucking ddiscord mod)
Girl, istg, same-
except I’m in HS and these girls are RUTHLESS. -
@just-a-fkn-reaper-3-0 oop
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@just-a-fkn-reaper-3-0 just
post their names and house adresses
I’ll deal with them :3
if they dissapear don’t worry they’re just eternally sleeping
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@Enzi broooo
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@Enzi God, I really wish it was people saying it and not myself for the majority of it.
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@Enzi im helping
uwu cutely snaps ur neck
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kitkatgirlie omg no-
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kitkatgirlie YES GRAB THE NUKE ILL GRAB THE NUCLIAR BOMB
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@Enzi BET
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IM GETTING THE SPRINGLOCK SUITS AND KNIVES AS WELL
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kitkatgirlie *comits arson to the part of des’ brain that thought she was ugly
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kitkatgirlie OMG YES
DONT FORGET THE MATCHES
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@Enzi WE FINNA ALWAYS COME BACK AFTER THIS ONE
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kitkatgirlie YAAASSSSSSSS
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If it helps, you can get surgery to decrease their size when you’re older
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@Namira I’ve seriously thought about it-a family friend got one, and she says it really helped. Besides, it doesn’t have to be a major reduction either-
