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So I have a sore throat. Strep to be exact. Thatโll be important later.
So yesterday I was taking the trash out. I was scolded a bit for not taking it out earlier like my dad said. No biggie. I come home after some walking and my mom is searching my computer. But no worriesโฆ I know that I didnโt do anything, Iโm CONFIDENT.
But oh no. I left my pinterests open AND didnโt even know what was on because every morning when I open my computer, It resets on me so when It opens I Ctrl + Shift+ T It to make all my tabs come back. For a week now the only tabs Iโve been using was youtube, And school. I havenโt really looked at pinterest for A WEEKKKโฆ Itโs just there. Cause it was my most recent!!
Want to know what was ON THE PINTEREST??
An OC with red horns. HE looked snazzy and I TOTALLY FORGOT I had him on.
Again she asked me why I was so interested in Dark themesโฆ I had no answer. What do I say? Cause I like it? Nawโฆ Cause Itโs pretty? NO! So I kept saying I donโt knowโฆ
She said โIf you donโt know then I might just think youโre crazy!โ That made me cry a little.
Then she said โAnd your vintage old timy clothing style. Itโs just demonic. Itโs a vintage spirit.โ and she called all my clothing designs WEIRD. And said that it was WEIRD that a young girl like me is so INFACTUATED with vintage styled clothing. Or even interested in anything vintage.
She also called one of my fioraโs Character designs Dark. Because itโs the โStory behind it.โ By the way, Iโve already showed her AND GOTTEN HER APROVAL For most IF NOT ALL of my art. Sheโs seen it before. But is now disapproving it because she saw flashes of it and said it was a sign.
She then tried to gaslight by talking about one of my art folders and the art in it. Talking about some guy with fangs. THAT WAS DIGITAL ART. I REMEMBER. I told her this, She brushed it off KNOWING THAT She was wrong. But instead saying โDo you think Iโm stupid?โ
Oh and she said that my art wonโt fucking matter in my adult years. Iโll literally be forgetting about it when I start work.
Sheโs also pushing my further away from art itself and instead of drawing, she wants me to pray.By calling my art weird, Disapproving art that sheโs approved before, And telling me that Iโll give up on art soon, It just makes me want toโฆ Iโm already self conscious about my art now. She just makes it worse by saying itโs weird or dark or demonic. I just want someone to be proud. She even makes it hard for me to accept real genuine compliments from people who like my art. I LITERALLY DENY THEIR COMPLIMENT. It goes like this,
โI lOOOOOVE YOUR ARTโ
โThanksโฆ Itโs not that good thereโs a mistake hereโฆ itโs horribleโฆโ
โNAW WHAT ITS GOOOOODDDโ
โnoโฆ Itโs not that good.โ
Guys. IDK WHAT TO DO if I keep tip toeingโฆ
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Oh and by the way, she said she was done helping me through my spiritual journey with god so She said โDonโt come to me with any additude or any thoughts or nothing. Iโm done.โ
Sheโs giving up on me.
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Totally forgot about the strep, I threw up last night and nobody cared.
My mom litereally said, โWas that (Sister) or (Me)โ My step dad said โ(Me)โ she said (Cause I threw up on the floor) โWHy didnโt she go to the bathroom then??โ
I DONโT KNOW I WAS DRIFTING TO SLEEP BUT THEN SUDDENLY BOOM I THROW UP. AT LEAST IT WASNโT ON THE BED???
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This is a ventโฆ Uh I usually put my posts in bored sorry, Can we move this to vent?
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Sphinx np
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Going through the same thing, without the religious part. My mom separated me from social events with the excuse of work and having to watch my sibling. I ignore their comments on it and tell them that I am doing what I want to do, and her gaslighting and manipulative tactics are not going to put me back in her footsteps. โI am not her mini, I am me.โ
If you want more help dm me and Iโll give you more tips and feedback. My internet is down so if you do please be patient for replies. I will get back to you as soon as I can.
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@Cole I might just make a call So I can vent to a bunch of people here :) you can join too
Just so I can explain better Haha
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