TW for intimacy and mentions of SA.

[Grub Bug Juice]

Me and my partner were on call today, we were just finishing up playing some horror games when he suddenly mentioned (and continued mentioning) having sex.

I am afraid of intimacy, and I have strongly made that clear over the years, but he didn’t listen. It’s obvious why I am afraid of intimacy but for the new people or maybe the people who aren’t aware, when I was only a baby I was molested by my own biological father and other family members.

The situation was handled legally but I still struggle with that trauma, and therefore have developed a deep seated disgust with the topic of sex. So when he brings it up I tell him every time that I am not interested in having it.

In fact I even told him he could go to other woman for it, and it wouldn’t bother me at all.

I have just gotten over my hypersexuality. I don’t need this.

I have always been and always will be afraid of intimacy, rightfully. Exposure to it will not fix anything besides make me incredibly uncomfortable, and want to avoid the culprit completely.

Once I am financially stable I will search for therapy but for now I am stuck venting as a way to cope with this.

I am also sick of fucking assholes saying “Oh but you don’t know what it’s like so how would you judge it at all??” or “I could easily fix that” NO THE FUCK YOU CAN’T STOP TRYING

Thank you for reading, sorry if I made you uncomfortable, I am also incredibly uncomfortable.

[angelwingz]

Grub Bug Juice wtf… bro its not that hard to respect basic boundaries

[Soverign]

Grub Bug Juice said in TW for intimacy and mentions of SA.:

“I could easily fix that”

People who say shit like this actually disgust me, what??? Like BSFR with me why do people even say this it just seems so terrible to say this to someone who has been SA’ED by their own family members, oh my god bro…

[plutonium]

Grub Bug Juice said in TW for intimacy and mentions of SA.:

“Oh but you don’t know what it’s like so how would you judge it at all??”

I’ve been targeted multiple times by pedophiles without understanding how wrong it is when I was very young, yet nothing actually happened to me despite always going along with what they said - even so, I myself have had an innate fear of intimacy, and frequently think to myself about how comfortable I am and would be living and dying a virgin and alone

[plutonium]

The fear of not knowing how it feels and not wanting to find out is a major cause of that
(so like anyone who says that is just stupid)

[Blake]

Grub Bug Juice Please dump your partner or better yet, tell him to stop or you WILL dump him… He obviously wants you for pleasure. You stated that you don’t like sex and he still won’t listen, asking about it over and over. That’s not what a caring partner does.

A caring partner asks about your boundaries and respects them.

And doesn’t inquire about what you don’t want to do when they know well of it.

[Grub Bug Juice]

Blake I’ll update y’all about this.

[Grub Bug Juice]

I’d also like to mention that he left the call without saying a word to go play with his friends.

[Blake]

Grub Bug Juice Mnnn i’m getting the vibe that h doesn’t appreciate you…

[Grub Bug Juice]

Blake Honestly me too