im so tired. i just want it to end, [TW!! SUI--DE MENTIONS]

[siloxa922]

a few months ago, preferrably 3-4 months ago, my mum had a stroke, and because i was so freaked out, i didnt even call 999, i feel so guilty for that.
i keep having dreams about her dying and being extremely sick
i dont want to dream about that
i dont want to be so stressed all the time
i dont want to lose my mum
i didnt want to see my mum in a bad condition
now my life is like that
stressful
unmanagable
heartbroken

im so tired
please let it end
i want to actually kms
i dont wanna deal with this miserable life
:(

[tea.and.crumpets]

Yikes. I’m very sorry about what happened. Just recently, one of my uncles had a heart attack and passed away. I thankfully didn’t get vivid dreams of others passing away, but that is quite concerning. Did you talk to anyone about it? Does this happen every single day?
Also, please do not end your own life.

[Sphinx]

siloxa922
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Here’s a post about depression and Anxiety and some resources/Numbers to call for help.
https://mpp.community/forum/topic/6422/disclaimer-mental-illness-depression-stress-anxiety?_=1707833756884

Here is a post you can use talking about self improvement, It’s a little vague and might not work for everyone… But you can try!
https://mpp.community/forum/topic/46666/steps-to-have-self-improvement?_=1708474024729

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