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    • RE: Well....I think its time I come out. /srs

      also advice from me: do not tell your parents. do not give hints at all. ‘oh but they seem understanding’ boi shut up they’d probably make your life hell the next day

      posted in Wellbeing
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    • RE: Got suspended from school yesterday. (TW ;; Self Harm, Etc)

      i hope you’re okay, i hope it all goes well
      please bandage your wounds carefully or if the nurse did it i don’t know
      try to keep clean, maybe find projects that could help stop cutting. again theres the butterfly project and i shared a method i think
      knowing i went through similar trauma, i understand why you do so in the first place.
      still though, don’t do that anywhere publicly. that can definitely make your life worse as it is right now. i wish you the best, recover safe, sorry if i was like harsh but my points stand.

      posted in Vent
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    • RE: Got suspended from school yesterday. (TW ;; Self Harm, Etc)

      piddles hello there is different ways to DEAL WITH TRAUMA!!! SH is an UNHEALTHY COPING MECHANISM and i KNOW it is hard for them to quit however they could deal with it in ANOTHER WAY that won’t HARM THEMSELVES and won’t harm OTHERS

      coming from someone who used SH as a coping mechanism multiple times at one point; mending

      posted in Vent
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    • RE: Long time no see 🙂

      Sphinx ur art is so cool, i hope ur doing ok

      posted in Blog
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    • RE: Well....I think its time I come out. /srs

      Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . congrats !!

      posted in Wellbeing
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    • RE: Trigger warning but I really need help.

      Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . butterfly project

      there was also a person who put tape on where they usually sliced and ripped it out harshly

      posted in Asking For Support
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    • RE: Got suspended from school yesterday. (TW ;; Self Harm, Etc)

      Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . okay but quick question, why the fuck are you self harming IN SCHOOL of all places. you could’ve done it anywhere else even. not saying this is invalidation but you genuinely need to have a reality check.
      i feel a mental hospital WILL help you get back on your feet unless your experiences there are terrible but again, i’ve never truly been in one and i researched how it looks/feels like. even your therapist will probably recommend it for you

      stay safe but dude please just not do that somewhere where someone may have a fear of blood (hemophobia) or wounds (?phobia) you’re weird for that shit

      posted in Vent
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    • RE: gonna get unbanned on bdns today

      ayin i tried to get rien and sora married but the game failed me once again. i hate it so much i just want them to have kids

      posted in Gaming
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    • gonna get unbanned on bdns today

      for now ill leave my tomodachi news here

      im adding the patron librarians + both versions of angela to my island. i lowk thought of skipping tiphereth because of her braids but then realized it wont be as cute and funny as i planned so LET ME FUCKING COOK

      posted in Gaming
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    • roland please dont look to your left

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      posted in Images/Videos
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    • Angela says hi. Say it back.

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      posted in Images/Videos
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    • RE: If you simp for me upvote me :)

      Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . just QUIT mppc if you get THIS LOW DOWNVOTES

      posted in Blog
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    • RE: If you simp for me upvote me :)

      SEVEN DOWNVOTES

      posted in Blog
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    • RE: My Thesis about the Zeal and Ren situation

      Pheo Everyone sucks

      posted in Blog
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    • RE: My Thesis about the Zeal and Ren situation

      Pheo True that. It could be that one realized they’ve been manipulated, but as I know, I didn’t really find anything from an actual professional in psychology.

      posted in Blog
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    • RE: My Thesis about the Zeal and Ren situation

      ꩜ֶָ֢. 𝒔𝒆𝒕𝒉 ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 roblox game

      posted in Blog
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    • RE: I think quitting capcut and moving to blurrr n Funimate was the best option

      Yeonjun 𝜗ৎ . funimate??? oh girl

      posted in Edits/Videos
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    • My Thesis about the Zeal and Ren situation

      Reposted from BDNS.


      as everyone probably knows, Ren/NoLongerNull, former composer of Pressure, accused Zeal, the project lead of Pressure, of sexual assault and manipulation recently. I wanted to make a sequence of events regarding this. I would like to make it clear that I do not support Zeal and you should go side with Ren, but if new updates arise, I will make a response to it.

      Zeal’s response just came out today so I’ll be looking to it.

      Of course, TW for mentions of Sexual Assault and Self-death. Comfort censor due to text flood.

      As a reminder, Zeal:

      • “Pretended to be his mother”
      • Made the infamous response video (talking about Work at a Pizza Place + “sorry I wasn’t good at sex”) which we’ll look further into
      • Apparently attempted to end his life
        Keep in mind that Ren specifically said this: “Zeal. I beg of you, please, do not harm yourself or others around you because of this document. Don’t self-harm. Don’t kill yourself. It will not make things better for you, or for those who love you, if you even care. And do not yell at, or harm, anyone else around you (from the team, or your friends/family).”
      • Played Roblox while in the hospital; it is common that if you’re in the hospital because of this psych, the internet may be taken away from you or you just get restrictive access. Social Media is usually a leading cause to attempts.
      • Is diagnosed with Autism, which is important for what I’m about to go over due to his lack of social cues
      • Sent cute animals cuddling to other women so no special treatment was given.

      Ren:

      • Is diagnosed with BPD, and so explains this section:
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      • Apparently enjoyed the interactions she had with Zeal (with DM proof of it) though she retracted consent after
        Keep in mind that you CAN retract consent if you felt that someone may have been pushy the entire time, or that they manipulated you and you found out. You’re valid.

      Timeline:

      1. Ren used to work with Zeal before she ultimately stepped down. Zeal and Ren did have minor arguments like leaking unofficial/confidential music Ren made before RDC.
      2. Ren and Zeal got along privately. Zeal was prideful of his figure, and Ren was “happy” about it. Zeal wanted to carry Ren around from his pride because Ren is shorter than him.
        Virtual and physical consent is different. Zeal probably thought both.
      3. To RDC, Zeal shared what hotel he was in (Mariott) to Ren, which was somehow a plan even though Ren originally asked where Zeal was. When they both met, Zeal carried her around. Ren did not like it but preferred not to show it because she was depending on Zeal; this could be that Zeal was Ren’s “favorite person.”
      4. Zeal and Ren had intercourse, except Zeal apparently made sure Ren was taken care of. Ren explicitly stated that she liked the interaction several times on their DMs, however Zeal did not pick up the fact Ren genuinely depended on him. This might mean Ren had hypersexual tendencies.
      5. Ren got concealer from a friend after Zeal gave her hickeys unintentionally, however Ren was rubbing it off and showing off the hickeys she got from Zeal, which led to multiple people knowing, what Zeal didn’t want. Zeal confronted Ren about it when Ren was at the theater and Zeal was heading back to his dorm, explaining that Ren broke his trust. Ren would then try to find the person who told others, exclaiming a threat to harm them.
      6. Ren attempted soon after Zeal turned off his phone, and when Zeal learned about it once he was home, he was horrified. He still had feelings for her and he wanted to help her out still. This can be ignorance, however a breach of privacy is still a bad thing to do. I do not blame Zeal for Ren’s attempt.
        Note that this screenshot in particular is still weird.
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      7. Due to the RDC delaying the Operation: Heartburn update, Zeal was more busier, not responding to Ren frequently and trying to meet up the short deadline. Zeal forgot her real name, usually referring her as Ren. This is not meant to be a bad thing.
      8. Zeal wanted to reject Ren because of everything that happened, because he felt entrapped. Zeal apparently never saw Ren as “a body to use” but as someone to be taken care of, but Zeal didn’t want long-distance relationships. Ren was pushing it, but Zeal kept his ground as FWB only.
      9. During “The Block,” an event Ren attended, Zeal learned that Ren harassed people through DMs and in-person and gloated about tearing apart a sticker. Ren also leaked music early. This led Zeal to lose further interest in Ren, as initially, Zeal didn’t want to date due to their locations. Zeal was content with Ren removing her private account from his, and since she cut his Twitter off, Zeal didn’t know about the suspension.
      10. Zeal began to act cold to Ren as a plan of her leaving Zeal for good. Zeal apparently never claimed that Ren assaulted him at all. Ren was banned from RDC due to the self-death scare, and was excommunicated from her team due to her actions. Zeal did look after her financially, and Zeal does not know why Ren retracted her consent.
        also small note but you can’t be saying “Consent given cannot be retracted 6 months later.” in a response to you apparently sexually assaulting somebody; it’s insensitive and really dumb

      Summary: Zeal and Ren worked until Ren quit, they were still friends moving into FWB, Ren was romantically pursuing Zeal and Zeal denied it, Ren attempted and Zeal felt bad, but then Ren did fucked up shit which made Zeal want to distance himself from her.

      Of course, support Ren and boycott the game plus its merch. Do not say anything about the game or call it “drama” as this is a serious situation that has harmed several people. Aside from this, we can only hope Zeal is doing okay. Nobody should die from this, but it should be a time to learn and change.
      PS. Ren prefers to be called a survivor, not a victim.

      posted in Blog
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