So I found this Eddie friend like a couple weeks ago, And we were becoming close, and I mentioned abt Stanley, who was my gf, and she kept pressuring me to say smth about her, but I was too scared, and then she told me she liked me, and I didn’t wanna hurt her feelings, so I kinda jus agreed, because only God knows what would happen.

So then like a couple weeks ago, she told me she was gunna carve my name in her skin with a blade, and I told her not to, and comforted her. And she said she was gunna do it with sharpie. And then the night after she told me she was gunna do allat, She told me she did it. She carved my initial in her thigh. And she Sent a photo of it on discordAnd I’m like, what the fuck, because NOBODY has done this when I was with them. And I didn’t know what to even say, I kept just saying why why why. And she kept saying " because ily " and " hehe " And I was genuinely like " what…? " And I was scared to do anything but comfort her, because one wrong move and she might carve my whole name, or worse, kill herself. And I’m literally just so over it rn

I have more drama I received today, So I’ll say that soon

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Edit ; Her best friend [2:35 PM JUL 14]

So, I found out a couple days ago she changed her whole thing and she was matching with her bsf, Yes cool idc, That’s fine. But like, yes, my gf and her bsf are matching right, yeah that’s normal, idc, But her bsf carves my gf’s name in her skin, and my gf does the same? I noticed also she dosent have me in her bio anymore only her bsf? I’m scared to break up with her because only God knows what she could do. Yeah, If she could do that type of shit like carving someone’s inital and name in her skin, Only God knows what else she could do. I also got this information from my bsf, And she was on a call with the bsf, And asked her why’d she do that, and the bsf said she said she’s done it before?? Like idk, I think she’ll like, say that it’s because they’re bsfs, or make me feel like I’m in the wrong, or some shit like that.

Sorry if this makes NO sense but you know??

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Edit ; I did it. [ 2:56 PM JUL 14 ]

@YangyangsPlayDoll

You’re genuinely fucking fake. You don’t care about me, Nor my feelings. You never fucking did. You rely on me to be there for you, But you never do the same for me. You’re utterly fucking disgusting. I wish I never became your goddamn fucking friend. You’re shitty. Not just as a friend, But also as a person. I hope you bump into the wrong people and end up like me. Vulnerable and Broken. I hope nothing great comes into your life. You fucking genuinely suck. You’ve consistently and continuously shown me that my well-being and feelings don’t matter to you. You never did. You’re just a fucking hypocritical bitch. Fuck you. Genuinely. I fucking hate you so fucking much it hurts.

Fuck you. I wish to never have friends like you ever again. Ever. You’ve shown me that you clearly don’t care about your friends or their well-being. It shows you’re clearly just using them to drain them over and over again. And think they don’t have feelings.

I fucking hate you with all my heart.

Edit

Being as though you drained me to bits, I can’t fucking leave you. And I want to. So bad. But I’m attached. And it hurts. It’s like I’m stuck in a place that doesn’t even feel like it, And I’m being huddled and crowded up in it. Squeezing my blood out of me. Draining my last bits drop by drop. And I can’t escape. You’re eating me alive and you know it. You know what you’re doing to me. You know I can’t leave you. You know I’m too Vulnerable to stand up for myself. And you’re taking advantage of me. You clearly know I can’t do anything but tell you to stop. You know I never wanted this. You know you decieved me. You know you’re desperately trying to drain me dry until I can’t physically do anything. You’re amazing. Genuinely phenomenal. You’re a great friend. You don’t want to stop. You keep stabbing me in the heart. Over and over again. Trying to make me bleed out. You’re continuously trying. And you always succeed and win. No matter what. You always knock me down. And when I try to stand, You knock me down once again. The cycle never reverses itself. I hate your guts.

I’m not forgiving you. Ever. I’m fucking forgetting you.

Yes, It’s Yangyang on one of my girlfriend’s account. Um with consent, trust! (SHE DOESNT EVEN USE THIS A–)

I deleted my account due to a breakdown / episode I had.

Uh, I’m remaking my account either my birthday ( Oct 28 ) Or June 5th.

Uh, Unfortunately I’m alive and healthy

Yeah, This was so short and unnecessary but um yk, People actually cared, Considering I thought people didn’t during my breakdown. But uh yeah, For now I’m on Camryn’s account 🙃

Edit ( TW )

I was upset and and feeling like I was secretly being betrayed behind my back, Like how I found out before my breakdown. And that’s what caused my breakdown. My friends of 5 years betrayed me, They told I was useless, Told me they hoped I kill myself, Told me I get SA’d and Traffic Jammed (My word for R@p3). And they told me I wasn’t enough. So I had a mental breakdown, And I told my friends (Siloxa, Ramy, and Wren-ge) That I was quitting Mppc, Because I had enough, And I was already dealing with stuff on here too. And I definitely wanted to quit been then. So I thought I was just gunna leave my account to rot. But I went too far as to delete it. And then I was sobbing, Because I left the people who made me feel like I actually mattered. But I sill felt like they were just using me for my happiness, Or betraying me behind my back. So I never thought much of that. But I left the site that not only made me suicidal, But it also made me feel wanted and safe. Even if some of people here are assholes, We’re all family.

So, Yeah 😨

@blackpearlscuddleslut Ts so tuff 😹😹😹😹😹✌✌✌✌✌✌✌🤑🤑🤑🤑🤑

Blake

My 5 year old sister kicked my head, The loml isn’t answering me an sent me a message as if she’s gunna die, My parents are arguing, An the only person comforting me is my older sister. I literally hate this night. This is the worst night. Hell, Even day. I hate today. I don’t know what to do with my life anymore. I’m genuinely sobbing an I feel so fucking pathetic. This hurts, An I don’t know how to genuinely put this all together. I may be over exaggerating, But I’m genuinely not having it right now. My chest feels like something heavy is on it, And I feel like I’m about to just give up on life. I don’t know how to feel or what to even say. I genuinely feel useless an pathetic. Please help.

@Stanley-Uris

ONLY TO BE DATING HER BEST FRIEND WHILE WE WERE TGTHR BTW.

@blackpearlscuddleslut Yes

I know I said i was gunna come back on the 27th of July, But I wanna just talk about how i am right now.

So, I’m doing okay, I’ve been editing all my time, I’ve quit vaping two days after I took a break from kajiwoto and here, I still kinda drink, But not so often. I have a couple of secrets i can’t share for now. My toxic friend group has gotten worse, My family is starting to care about me a lot now, And my half new friend group is starting to be a little mean to me, I think they’re talking shit about me. :(

Anyway yea, I’ve been okay for now !

♤ Hail :p ♢ WAIT STOPPPPPP I LOVE THIS SMMMM

@Stanley-Uris Fuck Gilbert

Infina-Phoenix That’s so real.

(Fuck, you make me fall in love
It might crush you
In love, love, don’t make me crush you
I want to kiss you, ugh)

Baby likes it messy
And she last to cause a scene
Touchin’ me in public
Like she wants the world to see

All the things you do to me
I don’t care if you’re using me
I just want her on these sheets, oh, yeah

I want to kiss you on the mouth
Take my tongue and lead it southbound
Baby, put some faith in me
Put your waist in my face
Come on, violate me
I want you to violate me

Bite my lip, I’m fallin’ for you
You ask, I’m crawlin’
On my knees, watch your feet
I can help you with your demons
I’m gonna bring 'em to life
Don’t keep them buried inside
Just wanna fuck you all night
Like a porn star

Lord, forgive me, I
Gotten wrapped inside
When she looks at me
Like that

I want to kiss you on the mouth
Take my tongue and lead it southbound
Baby, put some faith in me
Put your waist in my face
Come on, violate me
I want you to violate me
I want to kiss you on the mouth
Take my tongue and lead it southbound
Baby, put some faith in me
Put your waist in my face
Come on, violate me
I want you to violate me

I want to kiss you on the mouth
(Yeah-yeah, yeah)
Baby, put some faith in me
Face, baby, violate me
Want you to violate me
(Yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah, yeah-yeah, yeah-ye—)

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YES, this is targeted
YES, it’s to 4 people
YES, I love this song
YES, I’ll love this song

Siloxa vaping at 13 years old in the big 25 🥀✌

Sphinx WAIT SLAY???

♤ Hail :p ♢ YAYYYYY.

Blake thank you, blake.

Hello, hello, kitty
Hello, dear friend
Your smile is pretty like a flower that’s in bloom
Love is in your heart, and sings a happy tune
Hello, hello, kitty
Play with us today
Hello, kitty says you can never have too many
Friends well bitch, I’ve got none
No ones no fun they all think I’m dumb
Rotting away in my party of one and I
Honestly can’t tell you the last time I saw the sun
Like hello kitty, got no worries in a fantasy land
Instead I’m dragging out each day pulling my hair out strand by strand
One day I’m gonna get stretched too hard and snap like a rubber band
I wonder if this will get better
People do say that it can
I can teach you how to be just like me
Crying all night, sleeping 'til three (la la la)
I can teach you how to be just like me, just listen carefully
I can teach you how to be just like me (aha), cute as hello kitty
I can teach you how to be just like me, just listen carefully (hello, hello, kitty)
Kitty, she’s my favorite friend (she’s my only friend)
I know no matter who abandons me she’ll be there 'til the end
And I know when the worlds in flames
She’ll take my hand and rescue me out of this shitty place
She keeps me warm, stitch me up when I get torn
Be the light amidst the storm, hail kitty she’s so adorned
I don’t believe in my much but if there’s one thing that I trust
If there’s a higher being, it must be her
She’s never unjust
I can teach you how to be just like me (uh-huh)
Crying all night, sleeping 'til three
I can teach you how to be just like me, just listen carefully
I can teach you how to be just like me (uh-huh), cute as hello kitty
I can teach you how to be just like me, just listen carefully (hello, hello, kitty)